bending over backwards

Aug 14, 2007 18:02


so apparently somehow im supposed to find a way to bend over backwards and fit my boyfriends needs, and yet he can just go on his merry way like im nothing to him, im not important, and i dont effect him at all. i could walk outside right now and get killed and he probably wouldnt even go to my funeral, hed just be like o well tht was a waste of two months and move on to the next slut tht will do anything for him. i hate it, im not good enough for him i dont fit who he needs me to be and hes constantly bringing up his exes and how they fit right in, loud obnoxious and rude. im sorry, but im not about to become over bearing to fit in with his standards its not who i am. i feel like im the only one making sacrifices. o god he pays for gas i cant believe it. he drive the whole like 10 minutes to get over here and its just a huge sacrafice. oh and lets not forget he loses computer time when hes here. he cant sit on his ass and play on the computer. im so frustrated. its not like i can tell him n e of this because then he feel like im attacking him instead of just plain telling him how i feel and he flips out and starts attacking me and i hate it! its not fair! i mean im sorry  im not who he thought i was when he started dating me, but is any one really ever who we think they are?
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