way too fucking long
i finally fixed my comp so i can get to web sites. my life has been practically upside down for such a long time now tht all this bull shit thts happening now is just a very average day in the life. i finally saw evan for the first time last sunday in over 1 year n then i saw him again today. chris n i have gotten so ridiculously close tht im starting to feel traped. chrises mom doesnt like us seeing each other ever since she found out were having sex. less than 2 months till my bday n i still work at shaws i hate it. but i g2g. i love chris so much he is my life and my everything but evan might still have a hold over me. if he wants me back i might have to fight to keep with chris. idk n e more. i wish evan loved me n i know chris loves me. y do i always have to want more?