This journal is too riddled with entries that I am tired of looking at, look me up on my alt user

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I had this dream that i did something to wrong Dracula (Bela Lugosi), so I had to repay him by being his vixen. I vividly remember being at his mansion (not castle O.o) It was very modern. For some reason, I had my ferret and my dog with me, and they kept getting lost, and Bela would keep finding them, one time on his way into the house from going ( Read more... )

It's been a while, but not much has changed. I'm still pretty moody although my meds have been controlling it a bit. I leave for Sewanee in two days. Two days, I get to get away from everything and live. Maybe write some good stories to add to my tentative short story book. Might not be that many, but I'm working on the publishing thing, I really ( Read more... )

So I spent most of yesterday being used as a pincushion as well as for vampiric purposes for doctors. I went in and the doctor (Dr, Pearsall. She's Russian, holy crap. Love her.) examined me and told me that I was dehydrated and that I needed an IV. And I'm thinking "what now?" And she goes "I also vant to tek bloot semples." And I'm thinking "Why ( Read more... )

I hate myself. I'm so stupid. Yesterday I lost a battle against myself and it makes me sick. My better part is so weak.
So I decided to write what goes through my mind daily.

Why are you doing this? It's so stupid. You'll be a hypocrite.
But you deserve it. You're a terrible person and you deserve it.
It hurts and it's irrational!
You need to hurt. It's ( Read more... )

Kinda describing how I feel. >_<
 Shameless lyric posting.
Two songs

I am a Revenent

Another year has passed and I'm alright
I lick the salt from my wounds and run into the night
Well it's unknown
Why collusion goes on
It rapes like betrayal
And I am rotting in the squalor of some

Do you remember the rage?
I remember the hate
I remember that it ( Read more... )

I'm so unbelievably depressed today. Last night I had the urge to just down all of my sleeping pills. I'm just so tired of having to put up with this. Life sucks right now for so many reasons and I'm tired of it. Sometimes, sometimes, I wish I was shallow just so I wouldn't have to worry about this. Of course, in trading my brains in for looks, he ( Read more... )

HAPPY 442nd , SHAKESPEARE!
I love you!

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[11:00] TheRunningWeasel: The practice one is the one that counts as our French final. The real one doesn't cunt.
[11:00] TheRunningWeasel: ...
[11:00] TheRunningWeasel: COunt
[11:00] TheRunningWeasel: COunt
[11:00] TheRunningWeasel: COUnt
[11:00] TheRunningWeasel: *frantically tries to fix typo*
[11:00] TheRunningWeasel: COUNT

I saw the Psychologist at school today, finally. So at the beginning of the talk, she said I was on the brink of anorexia, and by the end, she said that I had collapsed already. Well, fun. She wants me to see a psychiatrist who will perscribe me anti-depressants, which I guess is good. She said it will help me with my lack of confidence, sleep, and ( Read more... )