my last post was 1441 days ago... wow was i an emo boy back then. however, sadly, not as much has changed in that time as i had hoped it would... i guess i've changed... but idk if it was for the better. like for example im fatter now... thats not better. but o well. i guess i was right... it was never going to go away... i hope some day it will be ( Read more... )

woooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! happy new year!!!!
............ yeah... i hope this year is good. well... it cant be any worse than last year. a new year, and i feel that same way i did last year... like crap. o well, happy new year ne ways...

Y AM I STILL AWAKE ( Read more... )

ive tried to get over it lately... doing things with my friends and talking to more people and just getting my mind off of it but, when i am laying in bed just b4 i start to fall asleep i feel it. i feel this unsettled feeling deep in my stomach. like somethings still so wrong. its never going away... i guess i just need to face it. no matter who i ( Read more... )

yeah last night was fun. i went snowboarding in the rain. that part was kinda gay but cause of that there was like no one there. it was so warm i didnt even need a jacket. i was there for like an hour then, when i was getting on a lift, a girl form my math class got on next to me. it was weird. i dont no shes kinda crazy but kinda cool, and shes ( Read more... )

well here it is... december 10. what can i say... i dont no what to say. why did i have to hear that song. i hate that song so much.

why am i still... i have to stop. i... i gotta go

well im 19...horay!... i guess. i can go get waisted in canada now... to bad i dont drink. thats about it. i had o good time today but in the end of the day it just seems empty. my entire life seems empty... like somethings missing...

this sunday... would have been a year.
i dont no what to say...

well tomorrows my birthday but i dont think ne one cares... i dont even think im having a party. o well nothing can top what i got last year 4 my birthday. except one thing and i no im not getting that.

Christianity isn't a religion its a relationship!!!

well i gotta take my drums down soon... its getting too cold 4 them in the greage. so i guess i have to stick with gutair for the winter. but i'll miss you drums, just another thing that makes me happy that i dont get to have...