well happy birthday jesus, sorry ur party's so lame.
Y AM I STILL AWAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont no y i cant sleep... well i have an idea but... w/e. well christmas is over. i had a good time i guess... i had some fun. i got a few cool things like a $60 giftcard to best buy... even though i dont really like going there ne more(4 obvious reasons), but i didnt get what i really wanted... sigh... well im ok i guess. im trying not to talk about it right now but some how it always comes up. i guess even when im not thinking about it its still in the back of my mind. a little more often of late. i just wish the confusion would go away. i guess all i can do is be who i am and treat her how i always do. she no's what i would do 4 her... how much i care. how it could be 4 in the morning and i still would talk to her and try to comfort her. even if its about him... i just miss everything so much. i miss being able to talk about god and the bible with her... i miss going to church. i miss knowing that theres always going to be someone there to hold me when i need it. i miss her... i miss her eyes, the feeling of being in her arms, her smell(haha but i do), her voice(it just makes me melt), her company, how we had the same problems, helping her when shes scared, holding her as she fall asleep in my arms, making her food, watching boy meats world with her, reciting movies and tv shows with her, her moms, and even her dad,i miss the person i was when we we were together, and most of all i miss my best friend. I Love You... merry late christmas.
i dont no y i cant sleep... well i have an idea but... w/e. well christmas is over. i had a good time i guess... i had some fun. i got a few cool things like a $60 giftcard to best buy... even though i dont really like going there ne more(4 obvious reasons), but i didnt get what i really wanted... sigh... well im ok i guess. im trying not to talk about it right now but some how it always comes up. i guess even when im not thinking about it its still in the back of my mind. a little more often of late. i just wish the confusion would go away. i guess all i can do is be who i am and treat her how i always do. she no's what i would do 4 her... how much i care. how it could be 4 in the morning and i still would talk to her and try to comfort her. even if its about him... i just miss everything so much. i miss being able to talk about god and the bible with her... i miss going to church. i miss knowing that theres always going to be someone there to hold me when i need it. i miss her... i miss her eyes, the feeling of being in her arms, her smell(haha but i do), her voice(it just makes me melt), her company, how we had the same problems, helping her when shes scared, holding her as she fall asleep in my arms, making her food, watching boy meats world with her, reciting movies and tv shows with her, her moms, and even her dad,i miss the person i was when we we were together, and most of all i miss my best friend. I Love You... merry late christmas.