what is there to be so marry about?
ive tried to get over it lately... doing things with my friends and talking to more people and just getting my mind off of it but, when i am laying in bed just b4 i start to fall asleep i feel it. i feel this unsettled feeling deep in my stomach. like somethings still so wrong. its never going away... i guess i just need to face it. no matter who i talk to or who i hangout with or how many girls i flirt with, it will never go away. till the day i die... or till things are made right. when i wake up sometimes i dont realize that im not with her for a few mins. those are the best few mins of my day. its such a horrible feeling every day to wake up and lose her all over again. i may never talk to her again... but i will never forget. i cant forget. ive tried. i feel like im stuck in the movie ground hogs day. every day is the same day. i wake up and i feel like ive made no progress. like yesterday never even happened. im so in love... if theres ever any confusion left because of me dont give up on it. cause no matter what kind of situation im in, if i continue to feel like this and live like this, then im still gonna be in love with you... everything just feels so wrong right now. no snow on Christmas, every ones poor in my family, me having panic attacks. non of this is suppose to happen. im so sick of being alone... and no matter who im with i feel alone with out u... im sorry im in love with you... im sorry u even had to meat me... i hope ur not as sad and... i cant even find a big enough word to explain how i feel. i hope ur not as ________ as me. i hope ur happy. marry Christmas... i love u