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I wish I could say it's getting better. Sometimes it does. It depends on your perspective. I work over 60 hours a week. I wish I could tell you why. To live? No. To survive. Any what for?
You ever wake up and realize the best time of your life was 20 years ago? I do nothing and J have no one. I'm getting older. I used to joke that I didn't want to ( Read more... ) -
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It's been a decade. It's been 18 years since I joined. Here you are still existing. So am I. For now. I've gone from working at a coffee shop to driving a truck. Turns out, I'm good at it. Before all the people not reading this say "it's just driving", it really isn't. I've gone from driving chemical tankers, refrigerated units, to now driving ltl ( Read more... ) -
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I wish there was a manual for this. I really do. The short time we had I said I wouldn't give up easily and that seemed to be quite OK with her. She says she feels the same way about me that I do about her, but now it is me that is what's wrong and her saying in her relationship that doesn't make her happy is what is right. Which one is it? Is it ( Read more... ) -
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Well, I will be leaving for Miami tomorrow morning. Today will be spent looking over the lists and making sure that everything is packed up and ready to go. It will be pretty exciting since I have never been on a cruise before. Fortunately, I have done a lot of the reading on where to eat that is included in the trip. I have spent enough money ( Read more... ) -
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And....done. I sleep like a normal person most of the time. I still sleep less on the days that I work out, but that should get better. Even if it doesn't it's the difference of an hour. I do, however, regret not figuring this out way back when this started. I hate that I picked that habit up again and even more for so long. Although, I did have ( Read more... ) -
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Yes, ladies and gentlemen. I do believe I have it figured. The extra glutamine in my system appears to help. I have been sleeping fine ever since I started it. Last night, however, I did not, but that is probably because it feels like someone kicked me in the back. It is amazing that I can lift all these weights and do squats, but if I get on the ( Read more... ) -
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Whatever it is is working, it seems. On the downside, it would seem that 6.5 hours is my limit so far. I been waking up at 8 am, but I was asleep around 11:30 last night and woke up at 6 am ( Read more... ) -
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So here is what I'm thinking. Over the weekend, my sleeping gradually got better and better. My strength has been increasing more than 25% since, finally. Yesterday I worked out hard in the early morning, however, last night I could barely sleep. The sleep I did get(I'm guessing about 4 hours) was pretty good. This is just a hypothesis, but it ( Read more... ) -
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My blood work just came back. According to that, there is absolutely nothing wrong with me. This poses a question: Do I continue doing what I'm doing in the hopes everything works out, or do I go back and figure a way to get rid of anxiety in a way that doesn't include any kind of drugs? I will work on the former for a while longer and see what ( Read more... ) -
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Sleep seems to be improving. I honestly don't recall what time I went to sleep last night. It may have been midnight. It is also becoming more natural, I can tell. I'm actually dreaming and waking more rested more and more every day, it would seem. I'd be lying if I said it was still easy going to sleep. It takes preparation and sometimes an ice ( Read more... )