It's really starting to feel like 99.9% of the time I am not allowed to have a thought or feeling or anything of my own. The 0.1% is probably just about the little bit that Tim lets me - which is almost always when we talk compared to others around. Even me posting a status on my Facebook that I chopped off my hair after 6 years of having it all ( Read more... )

I'm confused right now... just don't understand why he's sorta back. Well, I mean I'm not complaining that he is, but just confused by it and a little (well quite actually) leery of it all. It's nice to have him back around. But is this just a temporary thing or a permanent thing or what? And it's more he came back to be there for me... why? And ( Read more... )

Wow I haven't updated in a LONG time! I will have to and try to catch up too... I got a new job just over a month ago and I've been on the road so much - lots of changes in my life too.... will post a proper update soon!

Ok so for a guy who said he wants no contact all with me anymore because he can only change the present and the future... he confuses the hell out of me still. Like I wrote last time, I was moving on just fine, not really even missing him and more like I am so fed up with his behavior. Yes, it would be nice if he came back or tried to call or email ( Read more... )

Wow- Is this the time for breakups? Kate Winslet splits and files for divorce from her husband of 7 years Sam Mendes, Jennifer Love Hewitt calls it quits with Jamie Kennedy, then Reese broke up recently with Jake Gyllenhal. And then also Rachel McAdams is single too after breaking up with Josh Lucas not too long ago too ( Read more... )

Grandma passed away last evening at 6:15PM quietly at home with all of us here in Colorado up at the house with her. She'd been bedridden the last 3 days, had her eyes closed until yesterday. The dementia really took hold lately and the last week she neither ate nor drank. Wednesday they warned us it was nearing the end. She held mom and my aunt ( Read more... )

Why is it that when a woman discovers her heart and hears so much more behind it, the world laughs and says "Fooled You!" basically! I'm sick of this. I'm done with this! I am beyond furious and livid and just flat out deeply hurt and betrayed! Suddenly now wants no interaction, not even friendship from me after an awesome visit last weekend ( Read more... )

Am I the only one not overly impressed with this movie? I'm not a huge sci fi buff though. I like Star Trek the Next Generation a lot though. However here I preferred Titanic by a landslide. I cared more about the characters on all sides there. While watching Avatar I was like Ok the big bad Americans are going to come in and annihilate these ( Read more... )

Cast came off today. Swelling still there quite a bit but has gone down since home. Now it is the big black boot as I walk. The aid of the crutches still needed for 2 weeks he said. But I am walking for starters with only 50% of my weight on that foot. Gradually I'll work my way to 100% over the next 6 weeks until I see him again, still wearing ( Read more... )

Wouldn't you know that as soon as I post about reaching my limits - in some weird joking way I'm sure I get thrown another wrench to add to the chaos? Work was going good - Grandma seemed to be improving. Thursday, December 10, I closed up the office and was feeling ok. Considered going to Walmart to buy myself some flat, red ballerina shoes for ( Read more... )