Comments | rose_griffes: depression and phone calls and how ignoring the problem didn't make it any better

rose_griffes

depression and phone calls and how ignoring the problem didn't make it any better

Oct 18, 2012 18:32

I haven't updated about dealing with depression for a while. Mostly because I had nothing to say: it was still there and I wasn't dealing with it very well, and so it went. ( there's more back here, if this interests you )

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raincitygirl October 19 2012, 00:20:19 UTC

I'm sorry you've been having such a rough time. I hope the meds help.

rose_griffes October 19 2012, 22:10:23 UTC

Thank you. I'm hoping they'll be helpful as well.

sabaceanbabe October 19 2012, 00:57:01 UTC

I'm glad you made the call, both in the first place, and then again in the second.

I... have the same issues regarding phone calls. And I took myself off Prozac almost 2 years ago now, because when I ran out once and couldn't get it refilled for a few weeks, I became suicidal. I didn't realize that was the lack of Prozac until it happened a second time, a couple of years later, and that's when I decided no more. I need to maybe try that therapy route, but I'm not really to where I can do that yet.

I hope your new medication works. ♥

rose_griffes October 19 2012, 04:06:22 UTC

A lot of the Prozac/post-Prozac anti-depressants have not just scary side effects, but also a terrifying list of effects when people try to reduce/stop the meds. I'm glad you're okay after that. Yikes.

(After my experiences with the muscle twitches, I found a huge forum about Celebrex Celexa, full of personal experiences about trying to reduce dosages gradually and the terrifying physical and mental effects that even gradual reduction gave these individuals. I'm glad my doctor was willing to go along with trying an older drug for me this time around. So many doctors cling to the attitude that newer is automatically better.)

((hugs)) Thanks.

brickhousewench October 19 2012, 03:17:55 UTC

Been there, done that. I had a bad bout with depression back in 2006. My best friend and I "broke up", my boyfriend dumped me very unexpectedly, and a very, very dear friend passed away, all within a space of two or three weeks. After crying myself to sleep every night for (literally) two months a friend gently suggested that I might have a problem. I'm so glad I listened. And that one of my friends (who I never would have suspected had depression) had recently mentioned that he was "the poster boy for Welbutrin." I went shrink shopping, and after appointments with three different therapists, found one I thought I could work with ( ... )

rose_griffes October 19 2012, 22:17:16 UTC

Oh wow, your 2006 sounds like a personal recipe for depression ( ... )

brickhousewench October 20 2012, 00:24:56 UTC

But the worst thing about the Celexa is that it's cheaper than Lexapro, and we know how insurance companies like cheaper alternatives.. So every time I changed jobs/insurance companies, they'd say, "There's a cheaper alternative. Have you tried Celexa?" And I'd shout, "YES, it doesn't agree with me!" Argh! Did they think I was taking a more expensive med just because I like spending money?

And I hear you on the negative self chatter. I like to say that what the Lexapro did for me was take away the megaphone from my Inner Critic. The thoughts were still there, but a lot quieter.

rap541 October 19 2012, 04:40:12 UTC

I am glad that you are trying something that seems to help family. My shrink, when I was seeing one, carefully asked about what other people in the family were finding effective, and his explanation made sense - if my brother didn't find zoloft effective, then since we're genetically similar, I might not find it effective either.

rose_griffes October 19 2012, 22:17:54 UTC

Yeah, my doctor and I talked about just that. So I'm hopeful about this one, since both of my parents found it effective, and since it's at least not causing horrible side effects.

daybreak777 October 19 2012, 11:11:45 UTC

I didn't know about the phone thing. I'll try to call you at some point. I'm super-busy right now but it's good to know things like that. And I like talking to you!

When you have time, you might want to try therapy again. With the anti-depressant it might be a good thing.

Callum icon just cause. :-)

rose_griffes October 19 2012, 22:23:14 UTC

The phone thing: the depression doesn't just affect my "don't wanna call strangers" attitude, it affects how much I'm calling friends and family as well. Though it took me a while to admit it to myself. That was one of the reasons I finally pushed myself to try another anti-depressant.

I love your Callum icon so much. If you ever consider deleting it, you'll have to let me know first so I can snag a copy for myself. (As long as you have it, though, it's yours. For me. Heh. ;-))

I'm seriously considering therapy again, yes. Thanks for the encouragement.