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It's easier not to be great...

Feb 10, 2009 21:39

WHO: Remus Lupin (very_literate) and Lily Evans (potionsandcharm)
WHAT: Depression.
WHERE: Chateau de Potter Lupin & Evans
WHEN: Sunday night (backdated).

( And measure these things by your eyes... )

Ω remus lupin, lily evans, place - lily's house

Comments 6

potionsandcharm February 11 2009, 03:41:08 UTC

She wasn't sure how she'd managed to keep it together after Remus had left in search of Sirius. She had hoped fora return, but the logical part of her-- the part that knew Rivelata, knew better than to think that way. Here, people disappeared constantly. For days. Weeks. Months. Here, there was little hope that someone who had gone missing would return days later with a cheerful grin and a less than impressive excuse.

What had come of this house? This house that once played home to seven people she cared for very deeply. This house that had become so very much a home-- A home she almost couldn't think of moving away from. One by one, they all disappeared, those people she loved so much. James. Harry.

The trinkets they'd left behind dotted the house's walls and tables, and she hadn't touched Harry's room. She could hardly look its closed door as she passed it by every morning. How often had she opened it, expecting to see him there? And how often had she thought she'd heard James' voice cry out in splendid stupidity? 'Lily! Lily, my ( ... )

very_literate February 11 2009, 04:06:57 UTC

Remus jumped slightly as she leaned against him. He'd heard her walking into the room, sensed her kneeling beside him, but the touch was still a surprise. But he couldn't even bring himself to move. The heaviness in his chest stabbed at him, and he could feel the pain of it right down into his fingertips. He'd never felt pain like this before... this agony that crippled him so that he could not even will himself to lift his arms to hug Lily ( ... )

potionsandcharm February 11 2009, 07:19:15 UTC

As he embraced her, she wanted so much to find the words to say to make his pain go away, but she couldn't. Try as she might, nothing came. Nothing worthy of what he was feeling-- nothing worthy of what they had lost. And so she decided not to say anything at all, and instead returned the embrace, running her fingers through his hair as they cried.

She was sorry. So sorry he had to go through what she had gone through months ago; so sorry he'd lost someone he'd cherished so much. Moments like these brought out the weakest parts of everyone. With each other, they had all been so strong, but now Lily and Remus only had each other. She would be alright. She's be okay, and she'd get through this. It would take time to mend, but she had done it before.

Remus, she wasn't so sure about, but she would do everything she could to help him.

"I'm glad you've come home, Remus," she said finally, quietly. "We'll get through this."

very_literate February 13 2009, 05:20:26 UTC

We'll get through this... The words lingered in his mind, mocking him for the fact that he was even in a situation like this, that he'd actually cared enough about someone to completely break without them. Granted, he was a sensitive person, he would have been upset about Sirius disappearing even if their relationship hadn't been what it was. But... not like this, not feeling like he was breaking from the inside out. This was unthinkably painful.

He could get through this, yes. He could, but when it came right down to it, he didn't want to. It was selfish, but he didn't feel like he should have to. He'd given so much to Sirius; his first kiss, his first time, his first... love. He'd come so far with Sirius, and he didn't want to go back to being what he was before... alone and withdrawn ( ... )

potionsandcharm February 16 2009, 00:54:31 UTC

There was little she could do aside from letting him cry. His pain needed to run its course, just as hers did, but they would do it in different ways. He would cry here, soak her to the bone with his tears, and he would lock himself in his room and cry there. Spend his days-- his weeks-- in solitude, depressed and alone. She would cry. She would mourn their loss, their loss of a friend, a lover, and a brother. But she wouldn't lock herself up. She couldn't.

This time, now, he needed her more than he ever had and probably ever would, and she needed to be there for him. She needed to be his strength, and she would.

"It's not your fault, Remus," she reassured him, smiling sadly as she cupped his face in her hands, gently rubbing his wet cheeks with her thumbs. "And I need you to understand that. It's not your fault. You tried, Remus. I know you did. You tried so hard, but you can't fix everything. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

very_literate February 17 2009, 15:57:27 UTC

Lily was so good. Lily always had been so good. Even if she was completely frightening and a little overbearing for Remus at times, she was nevertheless a good person when you stripped away that facade of intimidation. She knew him well despite the fact that he had never tried, and he was closer to her now than he ever thought he would be. He was still young compared to her, a year behind at least. Perhaps that had something to do with it, perhaps in that year he'd lost somehow, he and Lily had known each other better. It hurt his head to try and fathom that just now, though ( ... )