why do i care what people think? why is it so important? am i wrong to feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest and stepped on just because someone took something i basically use to keep me alive...the thing i need to survive...and laughed at it. she actually ha ha laughed at it. no...i'm not wrong in feeling this way. the only thing more ( Read more... )

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i truly hate this fucking thing...always with the WEBSITE NOT RESPONDING thing...fucking thing ( Read more... )

i am so effing bored it isnt even funny. ugh....to only have something to do. am also realizing eBay and Paypal are a bunch of crooks. lets say i sell something for 5 bucks. first ebay takes 35 cents for listing it, then they'll take a quarter for selling it, then if you use paypal with a credit card i get charged another 75 cents. its frigging ( Read more... )

Julia is right. I've had a lot of negative people in my life basically poison my brain. a lot of people i thought i could trust who turned out to be FAKES or just downright crazy (some a little bit from column A and a little bit from column B at the same time...*coughcough G'day mate coughcough*....) Fuck you! This is all about ME. I will go to ( Read more... )

maybe...maybe i need to just relax...i just dont know if i know how to relax.

maybe this is a game called "how many ways can rik be hurt and made to cry and reach for sharp objects"?.....i dont think i want to play anymore.

first jessica gives me nothing but shit, then julia as she always always does...deletes my comments in her journal..im just a fucking loser. a fucking loser freak with nothing. so i sit here actually starting to cry and looking for sharp things because i want to bleed. fuck everyone and everything.

bad bad bad feelings.....if this upcoming trip (45 days from now) goes how part of me thinks it will (ignored, shit on, crushed)...i wonder if ill actually find the nerve to kill myself this time. i think i might. this is all im living for right now and , i dunno, maybe its just me but when the person youre going out to see and basically put your ( Read more... )

JULIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!