i'm just scared to be left totally alone in a place i dont know with people i dont know. am i wrong to feel upset and scared?

well that was quick service. as soon as i post this, she e-mails me and tells me i can call her now..well...ok, so its not a "why me? everything sucks" post but its not a "phew" either. i dont really know what i feel exactly. this is where the split logic of my brain comes in...Section One doesnt care if she does other stuff with her friends, i ( Read more... )

so now i'm even more paranoid than i usually which is an almost impossibility. im sure its possible and more than likely probable all Julia wants to do is go over some basic things like arrivals, departures and crap like that yet somehow this e-mail has me absolutely panic stricken. so be prepared for 1 of 2 posts tomorrow. either a "phew...no ( Read more... )

17 more days until the most important trip of my life....and now my hamster has gotten sick. what great timing. he's really old so i'm just grateful he's still around. they generally live around to be around 2 and sometimes can stretch it to 3 if cared for properly. my last one was really old. he was a full grown "senior" when i got him because he ( Read more... )

Blah blah blah...I'm on a guilt trip because i had a slice of pizza for dinner...oh the horror! so i was about to wallow in my crapulence as i often do when the anklebiter calls me. as soon as the phone rings something tells me its her. so then im stuck on the phone with adrianna for about 2 hours then online with her for another 2 hours. why dont ( Read more... )

somebody needs to get inside my head and tell me what to do either one way or the other. :( i'm not a very good free thinker and i confuse easy. and i've never been this confused in my life. i've also never been this depressed and that's REALLY saying something. something very scary.

is some fucking common courtesy to much to expect? god, just make this all stop already.

what is the way out? this will only hurt someone very very bad.

Not that anyone actually reads this but i dont care. It's my journal so i'm gonna put what i want. This is bound to annoy people but oh well, you know? So anyway i was thinking last night in my little fantasy world before bed and it actually turned into a real dream with those insane plot twists associated with dreams. And it comes down to this. ( Read more... )

This Live Journal Website totally sucks. It doesnt even work half the time...ugh...