in order to maintain my freedom of speech, im making this friends only....let the game begin...the other journal will be the "clean" one.

..sigh...alas there are other journals and AOL/Yahoo/Hotmail/AIM profiles...i'll play ball and edit this one ( Read more... )

you know what? im not even going to dish on what that jizzrag did to me today. just know certain friends of mine have been told and thats good enough for me. 900 wasted dollars? sure that hurts....but what hurts more is that it was proved that everything vanessa said was correct. one of these days ill learn not to be so stupid and trustworthy. and ( Read more... )

found some old floppies from my first computer back from '99 thru '01...including some REALLY old pics of Julia (even baby pics she sent!) as well as these poems, yours truly unfortunately wrote....i even amaze myself sometimes ( Read more... )

im bored so i updated this ( Read more... )

Last Cigarette: i'd rather suck a dirty cock ( Read more... )

ok, one more thing...i think tattoo artists tell people to use Preparation H on new tats just because they know its embarrasing as all hell to go buy a tube of that crap. especially when youre young. so i made sure to go in with my sleeve still all rolled up and my arm all bandaged so they could see its not for my ass. ....i swear its not..... ( Read more... )

wanna know how my mind works? was watching the bleeding through dvd....got bored....said "why dont i go get another tattoo"....so i went.

8.......more.............days........ARRRRGGGGHHHH....i wanna go to the zoooooo and the record store and the mall and the...AARRGGHHHH...I WANT EVERYTHING!!

you know what? maybe it is time. all the hurt and all the ...everything...maybe its time.