So it's a new year again, a time for optimism and a fresh start. I really feel like I'm in a good place right now and I'm going to make a lot of positive changes this year. I know I've said this before and it hasn't panned out that well, but I truly think it could work this time. I've done a lot of soul searching in the last year and even though I' ( Read more... )

So, this is probably going to be another dower post, so in advance I'll apologize. My depression has been rather unpredictable, and by that I mean it comes and goes as it fucking pleases. I will be pretty good for a week or so and then for some reason or another, something that seems insignificant enough will set off a week or so of depression. It ( Read more... )

So I've been absent for a while. Since the beginning of the year I've been updating this as a sort of self-discovery journal to try and navigate through all the range of emotions I've been dealing with. In all reality I've been dealing with my depression. I've had it for many years actually. However I got myself into a state of complete numbness ( Read more... )

So I decided to whip out an old Brian and Justin icon for this post because I had a very epic night out at a gay club. Although it should be noted that I am not a party girl and I rarely ever drink, let alone get drunk. Due to social awkwardness and a general phobia of crowds, I tend to pass on nights out. But alas, monday night was a huge ( Read more... )

Something really amazing has been happening lately and I'm really excited about it. I feel as if whatever creative block I was under, it's starting to lift now and I'm dying to start painting and drawing again. For about four years it's been non-existant and I've really missed it ( Read more... )

After sitting here and finishing up an Elizabeth Taylor movie marathon (RIP Liz, you were a true legend) and lotioning up my new tattoo, I decided it was time for another update. I'm shocking myself with my frequency for updating this lately, but I'll ride this out and see how long it lasts.

I've discovered that I have a feeling of calm recently. Of ( Read more... )

So, I'm back again. Sooner than I thought too. But a lot of things have been rolling around in my head and I figured the best way to perhaps make some sense of all of it is to perhaps write it out. Maybe seeing it in black and white might give me more insight into my already over analytical mind ( Read more... )

It's been far too long since I've last updated this, and I highly doubt anyone at this point even bothers to follow my sporadic thoughts and musings. However, these entries are as much for others as they are for me. Milestones if you will ( Read more... )

Life has been flying by. Went to Columbus Pride which was very fabulous, definitely going again next year. Much better than Pittsburgh. Went and saw Adam Lambert in concert which was mind blowing, seriously. That man's voice is perfection. Of course seeing him in concert (and meeting Tommy, who is super ridiculously attractive and quite ( Read more... )

Good things are on the horizon. As of last week I started with a personal trainer and I'm really excited about it. Although when first told I would only have to work out twice a week and for only 15 minutes at a time, I was a bit skeptical. However, after meeting with the trainer Michelle and she told me she went through the program three years ago ( Read more... )