i just went on a 4 day cruise. and its funny, even though i had an amazing time and actually made really good friends, i came back in a worse mood. like a really, really shitty mood ( Read more... )

 i remember that pain. the numbness. that lasted for MONTHS. thats what i fear. the past couple weeks, actually... i cant believe it... but it will be a month tomorrow. the past MONTH has gone by so quickly. its felt like a few days. i barely eat. everything makes me sick ( Read more... )

 Maybe if my heart stops beating ( Read more... )

i feel like im wasting my summer. im sitting around, waiting for something that might not ever happen. waiting for a promise of fall. summer is already half way over. at the begining of the summer, i was so eager. and couldnt wait till august. and looking back on the past month and a half, i dont think what i wanted out of this is going to happen. ( Read more... )

i love studying history. i love this history class more than any class ive ever taken. and its not because of the people in it, im just in love with the material. We watched Kinsey today. amazing. fascinating. Alfred Kinsey is amazing. i want to change my major to this topic. or possibly study this IN psychology.

and i miss Greys. but even more, ( Read more... )

 so i dont drink anymore. mostly because i dont have time. but also because it just doesnt appeal to me anymore. i would much rather spend hours going to the gym and making myself better than get trashed, throw up, and feel like shit the next day. i dont have  time to feel like shit. i work almost 40 hours a week on top of taking 5 classes. and ( Read more... )

 I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car.

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.

I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh ( Read more... )

 i have done NOTHING this christmas break but work. and now im sick. everyone at work is sick. or at least all the girls are. one girl has pnemonia. so be careful. wash your hands after going to the mall. chances are youre going to be in contact with a very sick person ( Read more... )

i wish looks didnt matter.

im trying really hard.

to make it not matter.

and what do i do?

find myself extremely hot jerks.

yeah.

its not working.

[ps. usf is going to el paso baby!!]

i hope everyone had a happy thanksgiving ( Read more... )