Im reading midnight sun finally. I never wanted to before, because I know I'll be angry when I get to the end of this unfinished book and remember shes not finishing it. but I dont care anymore. I NEED something to distract me. And its working.

I wish I could eat though. I've already lost 5 pounds this weekend. I can barely keep down a few crackers ( Read more... )

the past couple weeks i have started entries and changed my mind each time.

i feel like im walking on a tight rope and im about to fall off.

fuuucckkk

how do i turn around?

I feel like Im on vacation...

time can not be erased. i have never been more miserable than the month of january. while i do believe in second chances, i will never forget how i felt. pretending it never happened is not an option for me. i guess it was just a lesson i had to learn. because i wasted a lot of fucking time last year. i knew it was right back in JUNE and i ignored ( Read more... )

I love this weather. I feel like I can breathe. I feel like I can finally clear my head. and man did I need to breathe. I dont know what it is, but I feel like there is this huge weight that has been lifted off my shoulders and NOTHING feels like a big deal. I feel amazing. I feel like Im actually paying attention in my classes. I have absolutely ( Read more... )

im depressed.

im mostly depressed because im SUCH a fucking idiot.

and i have all these people getting married around me and it makes me want to vomit. two of my best friends got engaged on the same day. now im a bridesmaid.  for both. SUUUPER. one is getting married april 18th. im stressing out and its not even my wedding. the other one is getting ( Read more... )

sooooooo.

my life sucks pretty much.

got everything i thought i wanted. (cept for the bf part cuz i repel boys like nobody i know)

turns out, what you REALLY want is always something you'd never expect.

hmm. havent written in here in two months almost... lets see what happened.

i obviously have been in love with the twilight series since i opened ( Read more... )

im so glad i can say anything. seriously... anything.. and youll still be my friend. and thats why i love you. i hope you understand why it cant be anything more. im just so happy that youre my friend, i would HATE to lose that. i want you to ALWAYS be there for me. im so glad i met you.

im pissed that i wasted the whole summer on him. driving to orlando all those times, in hopes for a better fall. but its ok. im so glad im completely done with that, and im pretty happy right now. :) and im def excited to start over. again. hopefully this time it will will work out. cuz im seriously sick of starting over. im sick of fishing. im not ( Read more... )

this really really sucks. i wish i could go back and fix it. i hate that i looked forward to it so much. and now it suuuucks. not at all what i expected. and my job sucks too. what doesnt suck right now??