wow i have not typed in so long...sorry rita and tash i just havent had the urdge to...so now i work at the movie theater and so far so good...i somewhat enjoy my job cause the people there make it bearable...i met a new friend and her name is lisa..she is exactly like me..i love her...we pretty much hang out togther all the time now so atleast i ( Read more... )

SO yeah u know how i said in my last entry that i gained weight but dont care...well i lied...but come on ashley ur only human and it happens to evryone...ive said that many a time and i think i said it so much that its losing its effect...so the other night after i got off the phone with tash i binged and tried to purge but nothing came out ( Read more... )

gosh i havent written in sooo long....I had so much fun in Mass...i got upset at one of my friends cuz i felt like they were blowing me off and im always nice to people so for once i wanted to be a bitch and not call them and blow them off...yeah thats not like me at all..well if i can help it...but the fact that i knew what iw as doing was wrong ( Read more... )

So i havent typen in a while...dont even know if typen is a word but it fits well in the sentence...i am right now in the library with my friend dee checkin the myspace and my livejournal...i have been doin well....i feel like myself again..well as close as i can get...its nice to cme back to a place where ur most familiar withand see old faces and ( Read more... )

Standing still but still moving ( Read more... )

So last night was a pretty rough night..a reminder that jolts me to tell me that i still dont have a hold on this...that i still dont have control...its always when i dont pray to God that it hits me and i find myself with my mouth full of food running to the bathroom...i am healed..i know i am but this battle just never seems to end..a lot has ( Read more... )

so yeah just another day...tanning,gym, and an mRI for my foot...thats what my whole life and days keeps circling around...i purged last night but only cuz i had some ice cream...i didnt binge but ya know it still sux...i have been better with g=food..alot better...im actually eating foods...not skipping meals or having the smallest portion or only ( Read more... )

so yeah today was a good day i guess...i went to the gym and then went downtown with my moma and my sis and went out to eat...then i lounged about like usual and then went tanning...i had a bad day with food but what can ya do? well i knwow hat i can do but i was just being apathetic...i continued to read one of my books today and then got an urge ( Read more... )

So the past 2 days i havent written r kinda a blurr...lets see i binged a whole lot 2 nights ago and didnt throw up(thank u jesus) but then went 2 the gym for 2 and a half hours...on Fathers day i had a piece of cookie cake and did find myself in the bathroom...makes me mad that all i ate was one peice and did it but when i binged before i didnt.. ( Read more... )

yeah so i didnt binge and purge yesterday even tho i thought about it...even tho i knew it would have made me feel better about having food in my stomach leave but then i logically thought it out and said no its ok ashley so u had some food that u usually wouldnt have...my mom and my sis went shopping yesterday ansd Grace got some new clothes that ( Read more... )