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I keep waking up in hell
We really need to vote our current regime out of office. I know LJ is owned by a Russian company but I still live in the USA where I can say I don't like Trump and his puppet master Vladimir Putin. I don't care if this is used against me so that I could never enter the Russian Federation. I have no desire to do so anyway ( Read more... ) -
Another post..random..
Yep..still playing Hurling. 8-0 to start the season. 151 games later and I am still going at it each week. Shocked? To be honest I am ( Read more... ) -
Hath Hell Frozen Over?
The Cubs have won the world series. They came back from 3 games to 1 to beat the Cleveland Indians in an extra inning thriller 8 to 7 in game 7. I am still in shock..what a game it was ( Read more... ) -
Things are still good
I still have a lot of hate for a certain person. I really am trying to let it go but I just haven't been able to do it. I am still working on getting back to things the way they used to be in my social life and at least I can say it is much better ( Read more... ) -
Better days ahead
I finally earned a break. My job went perm on January 1st. I am finally making what I should be at this point in my career and it has totally changed my outlook and my health. 120/78 BP..I haven't had that good of results since 8th grade. Stress is literally a killer ( Read more... ) -
Some how, some reason
I am still here. I spent more time in a hospital, against my will due to stress. Had my life threatened by a patient while there. I went to this place for outpatient therapy and before you know it I had my possessions taken away and a trumped up BS report that I said I would kill the people I live with..this was back in October 2014. I never ( Read more... ) -
more pain and suffering
Lottery or bust. Looks like bust. More abuse in general on the way. No win situations just drive me more into despair. I can't take much more of this. I already went to the hospital last week, probably stress related. No one believes how sad I really am. I really just want to go far away from everything that no one will have to worry about ( Read more... ) -
7 x 7
Many years ago I knew a woman named Virginia who talked about turning 49. She preferred to call it 7 by 7. I don't know what became of her after I moved away from California where I met her. It just seems like yesterday and now here I am 7 by 7 myself. It has taken this long but I finally do understand what she said and yes I am being vague ( Read more... ) -
Almost 7x7
Two more weeks to 49. I have tried my best but like so many other things that I set out to do, it didn't happen. I am tired of wasting my energy. Try as I might, I just am not good for anyone else. I refuse to be a bad person to make others think they can change me into 'something good'. I stand in front of you but you refuse to see that I ( Read more... ) -
Some days are not so easy
Today I just wanted to be held. It didn't happen. I will never understand what happened and its probably better that way. I am better off behind my door rather than walking through someone else's.