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The last week and a half or so has been nothing but a plateau of shit as far as my weight was concerned. I don't know if the 1650 calorie diet had just stopped working, or what was going on with it. But it was like I hit some sort of wall, and my weight didn't want to drop. It wanted to start going back up again. I was at 248.9, then jumped back to ( Read more... ) -
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Heck, I was even lower in weight than I thought on wednesday. I wanted to see what I was at, so I weighed myself on Thursday, and I was sitting at 248.9! A goal that I never thought I'd be able to reach when I started this up back in October. I'd lost hope so many times. Lost the drive, the motivation, everything. I never thought I would see the ( Read more... ) -
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I'm hoping that one day she'll come around. I never even really got her back. It was more of an "I'll just talk to you. And she's pretty much stopped doing that. She tells me I'm acting like the overly worried mother. She calls me 'mommy' on Facebook and normally because of our age difference. I try and give her an outlet to vent in, and instead, ( Read more... ) -
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I don't like being a vengeful person, and to lose something that is really important to me? I don't want to take it lying down. In the few months that we were friends, yes, I developed a crush on her, and yes, it clouded my judgement. We both said things to each other that we regretted (at least I know I did.)
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I've finally cut away a scab from my life. Someone I've been involved with for long enough. The time to begin healing is now. But I know this is going to make me a stronger person.
People warned me from the beginning about her. I was blinded by these lustful feelings I had, and thought maybe I would be that different friend. I vowed to be there for ( Read more... ) -
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I'm still kind of in shock that I found a weight loss regimen that is actually working. I've done a lot of research, and have seen that you can pretty much not do a damn thing as far as exercise goes, so long as the number of calories you consume a day is lower than your basal metabolic rate. Now obviously that's just an easy way out. Combining ( Read more... ) -
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Stephen and I celebrated our 4 year anniversary tonight by going to Wasabi for sushi. It's funny how we always do that as our "expensive" dinner. It's even funnier that I'm the one that caused him to have an affinity for the stuff to begin with. He used to think I was strange for liking it, and then he tried it out himself ( Read more... ) -
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I know most of my closest friends pay the most attention to my Facebook, but I know I have a few that watch my journal here. Most of my friends know the weight struggles I have gone through for years. I've always been the heavy one, and I let myself get entirely too close to 300 pounds. I'm trying to become skinny for the first time in my life. ( Read more... ) -
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Decided to spend my day off yesterday at Colossalcon. Im really glad that I decided to go, honestly. For the first time, something finally seemed to click with me. I don't know what exactly it was, and what caused it. But I actually felt good in the costume. I had more pictures taken in both of my costumes yesterday than any con I've ever been to. ( Read more... ) -
Why can't I be sakuya???
There are times that I wish I was better at time management. I've always been one of those people who waits until the last possible minute to get something done, and then I end up cramming and NOT doing my best work. I'm thinking about my future cosplay stuff. I have plans of things I'm working on, and know when I want to have them done. I have two ( Read more... )