the good: i "won" in the bidding for a 200mm lens for my camera on e-bay. woohoo! and only sixty bucks with shipping. what a steal ( Read more... )

whoa. am i ever mixed up. i feel like i should be lost and completely despondent. or biting my nails till they bleed in the corner of my almost empty room with the lights out but i am not. i feel strangely neutral instead. almost pleasant. don't get me wrong. i am not complaining. i just wonder where the mood swings come from. and why it is that ( Read more... )

i have a fever of 102 degrees. i worked almost twelve hours again. and i keep falling asleep uncontrollably. this is the most awesomest time i have ever experienced in all of my entire life. i fell asleep unexpectedly on the floor from about 630 to 10 and again from about 11 to 12. i am so confused. last night, i tried to make scarlet dinner for ( Read more... )

so this is my first journal in several decades on my home planet. (about three weeks of your earth-time) i hardly know what to say anymore. i did not sleep last night i watched a lot of movies and then i looked out the window and realized that the sun was out. so i did what any normal alien would do. i walked up to broadway for donuts and bottled ( Read more... )

dear ( Read more... )

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq
• You must tell 7 people about this game.
• cory is the one that you love.
• quinn is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about scarlet.
• sylvia is the one who knows you very well.
• mike is your lucky star.
• for no one is the song that matches with cory.
• ladies and gentlemen we are floating in space is the song for ( Read more... )

the ultimatum has been delivered. why do i feel SO powerless to do anything about it? what have i done?

how long can i keep my secrets? i am fighting the urge to go out and score some painkillers. i think i will go to vicious and dance it out of my system. wish me luck. <3 zak

so my new migraine medicine has to be administered via syringe. it's really strange injecting something into myself again. also it is almost four hundred dollars for two doses. that works out to three thousand + dollars a month at the rate that i get them. of course they work really well too. but my narcotics are only 10-50 dollars at a time. the ( Read more... )

so i haven't done an entry in forever. what a strange time it is. last night, no band practice. our singer overdosed on heroin. you know, like you do. *prolonged sigh* i have been wandering aimlessly for days. with only my walkman and camera to keep me company ( Read more... )