just now at the park ( Read more... )

i don't really want to say anything. i'm just hoping that if i do this enough times, maybe i will start journalling(sp?) again ( Read more... )

there is a darkroom now where our downstairs bathroom once existed. you are so fucking jay ( Read more... )

my photo teacher gave me this retarded look when i asked him a question that related to my 35mm camera. he told me to "make a new friend tonight and use their camera." and went back to talking about all the new advances in digital photography with everyone else that was standing around.

this shit breaks my heart.

gah. it's a good thing i am so stubborn ( Read more... )

the good news is that i will finally have something(albeit a piece of paper) to show for my excessive years in junior college. two classes away from a degree, the first in my family even to get an A.A., how sad is that? then what? who really knows/cares? a major identity crisis, i imagine. i have been going to City for so damn long i can't imagine ( Read more... )

so i have decided that i am back.

since i have last posted...

i totalled my truck...

decided to dedicate my life more to my music...

am now engaged to be married...

and have just moved back in with scarlet...

after a long day of moving, i am exhausted. it's good to be back though, lj. happy patriotic day.

yet another issue of my sordid past comes back to haunt me as both scarlet and i are assaulted outside the liquor store while buying rockstars late saturday night. true, i was a reckless and foolish little bastard. selfish, self-centered, drugged out to the max. but when do i get a clean slate, a chance to leave that person behind for good. do i ( Read more... )

i have not posted in forever. to sum up, i am moping a lot lately. i don't like the basement i have moved into. my dream of starting a darkroom down here is starting to look like just that: a big ole pipe dream. so anyway, that is why i have been neglecting my penpals and journal friends. i am never here if i can help it. i hope you guys understand ( Read more... )

i am moved now, in my dungeon. i will post some pictures soon, so you guys can experience the madness for yourself.

i proposed to scarlet. she said yes. next year we will be married. isn't that weird? ha.

i must go do errands. but i am back online. and will talk to you all very soon. love, zak.