shower in the dark. over and over. still feel dirty. television is hell's unique noise. walls breath noisily in the not-so-dark. god is watching us(from a distance.) kafka never had this to scream about. skin going going gone. fill me up with something that feels better. you have never had it so good. believe me.

this is what you get.

everything that matters is on the verge of disintegration.

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i just got back from quinn's. she is sick and me and her and sergio watched a grip of ab fab episodes. before that, school. my spanish class is going to be fucking hard. i can tell already. except my teacher is cute and looks like pj harvey. that has some potential entertainment value. really, i am extra excited about intermediate photo. other than ( Read more... )

the last time i saw you, i was so high that i could barely stand on my own. i leaned on the intercom until the nurse got irritated and yelled. i stood there by your bed, trying to ignore the sound of breathing machines. it is no way to remember a person. but then again, neither was i. i'm glad you couldn't see me back.
i will miss you always. rip

woo. it has been a while since i have posted anything. let me try to catch you up.

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this weekend went by in a blur. i really don't feel like going to work tomorrow. not that i ever really do. i mean, who does that anyway? back to school in a week. i really wish i had taken more classes this time. oh, well. there is always next semester. and the one after ( Read more... )

it's not too terribly bad. i just went and spent the gift certificate that scarlet got me for the beat. i got scissor sisters and the arcade fire. today, i got tickets for interpol(!!!) so i will finally get to see them. and they are general admission. blonde redhead is opening too. and i made reservations at scarlet's favorite restaurant in san ( Read more... )

i have not really slept in a couple of days. i am getting a sore throat. and i can't remember how to spell a lot of words. i am going to try to sleep it off. love love love.

we just watched old school. jenni brought me not one, but two onelinedrawing cds. hooray. now we are going to old sac to take night-time pictures.

new years was okay. we danced to bad music. it was lovely. scarlet was beautiful. you should have seen her really. gotta go.