i am the most insanest ever.
i have a fever of 102 degrees. i worked almost twelve hours again. and i keep falling asleep uncontrollably. this is the most awesomest time i have ever experienced in all of my entire life. i fell asleep unexpectedly on the floor from about 630 to 10 and again from about 11 to 12. i am so confused. last night, i tried to make scarlet dinner for our 11 month anniversary. i made shrimp scampi over spaghetti squash. well that is what i tried to make anyways. i butchered it so badly. it's not fair that nobody ever really drives it home to boys that they should know how to cook some. it's really terrible how often that gets ignored. i mean, i learned a little from my mom and dad. and i know a lot of males who can cook extremely well, my father for one. i just never really learned and it makes me a little sad. sometimes when i get really depressed i reflect on all of the things that i CAN'T do and it is really discouraging. i can't cook, i can barely sew, i can't fix cars(i don't even know anything about cars), i am not interested in power tools, i have never been good at sports, i could go on and on, but i am really sick right now, so i will keep the beating up on myself to a minimum. i am going to go watch a movie until i fall back asleep. lovelovelove.