you had all of them on your side, didn't you ( Read more... )

How much can I trust you? Everyone is free to comment, and it is encouraged. I'm losing much of my belief in most people.

Furthermore -- who reads my journal? Even if you don't comment, let me know.

I feel completely and utterly alone. I don't feel like there is a single person on this Earth who can understand the dynamic of what I'm going through and can really be objective about it. Hell, I don't even understand the decisions I've made in regard to how I deal with it. I am in a really dark place in my life where all I think about is self- ( Read more... )

All of this retrospect has got my head spinning. I am to the point where rage takes precedent over any other emotion I could possibly have. It’s sort of unsatisfying, but then again, I should have never have been forced to go through this at all. Even if I did, in some way, affect the outcome of part 2 a., part 2 b. should have never become an ( Read more... )

You are dead to me.

You've been banned from commenting on my journal, blocked from my MySpace, your comments on my profile removed and blocked on AIM. Why the hell am I giving you chances? If you were any sort of friend, you wouldn't avoid the subject or get defensive when I tell you how much it has hurt me. If you were any sort of friend, it ( Read more... )

The good:
- Lava Lounge on Friday night.  80's night was awesome, and we danced like maniacs. 
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I've returned!  I had a pretty good time on my vacation -- but I'll get to that later ( Read more... )

I'm officially on vacation!

I leave for the real fun on Tuesday when
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I'm never really completely sure how to feel or which direction to go in.  I've dealt with all of the extreme emotions that I possibly can, and no matter how hard I try to move beyond the negative ones, I can't.  I'm sure that some people would advise me to just let go, and eventually, I will attempt that route, but for now, I can't help but feel ( Read more... )

I am forced to turn inward. I want to understand what my mind and heart could never comprehend. I want to know that there is a cure to what I'm feeling. I want to know my worth ( Read more... )