Do you ever find that it's easier to explain yourself to anonymous readers than to your loved ones? Or that it's easier to talk to acquantainces and fringe friends about deep things? Do you have days when you just want to stay inside all day and not talk to anyone? That's me today. I'll be fine soon. But today...today sucked.

When I was younger, I had a long list of careers I wanted to pursue and never was able to narrow them down. I really stumbled into this career by chance, but I'm very happy I did. But, there are days when my job gets to me and I've had enough. And unfortunately I've been having those days pretty consistently over the past couple weeks. I'm ( Read more... )

I've been in a particularly bad mood this past week. I don't think I've talked about this yet, but SteelersBoy is going back home to take care of his mom's estate. He's not sure how long that's going to be, although we're both trying to be optimistic that it will be short. I'm trying not to be too sad about it, but its difficult. So because I'm ( Read more... )

"I want something big and obnoxious," I thought. "It'll guarantee that my kids won't be in this position whenever I die ( Read more... )

Relationships take work. I honestly believe that part of the reason they're so hard is that you're constantly trying to put your best foot forward. You are constantly trying to display your best side, and that takes concentration and work. You're constantly trying to think of the other person, trying to make sure that you're not overreacting, ( Read more... )

Here's a followup from Wednesday's post. It's interesting to go back and look at this. I should do this every couple years. Items that no longer apply are crossed out. New stuff is italicized, although I did capitalize things and try to fix punctuation.

1. Clothing

• Comfy in jeans, a T-shirt, and flip-flops
• Dress-up in a dress or a skirt
• Don ( Read more... )

There are days where my heart feels like it's going to explode from my chest because it's too heavy and my chest can't contain it. It doesn't happen all that often, but when it does I go through an emotional roller coaster. To say that I hate crying would be an understatement. But sometimes that's the only way to make my heart feel smaller, to ( Read more... )

One of our assignments in a high school drama class was to put together a personal profile. I don't remember the exact assignment, but it was to help us get ready for character development by identifying our own character. I was the only one in the class who got 100%. I've kept it ever since to see how much I've changed since. I'll post a ( Read more... )

One of my friends was ordained a priest today. The Cathedral was packed; my sister and I were fortunate to find seats. It took us a few minutes to find parking, but when we saw 3 priests walking from the same direction, I assumed I could find parking on that street. I thought we were going to be late, but I saw that the priests hadn't entered ( Read more... )

This is how I felt (and still do) when people asked me how I was doing the week my mom died. Even now when people ask me that with a sympathetic look on their face I want to respond with, "How do you think I'm doing?" But I figure that isn't the best option, and most of them truly have my best interest at heart and are genuinely concerned. I ( Read more... )