There is some part of me that sits content in the everyday schedule of things away from any drama with the only stresses coming from the economy or bills. Both of which are always there on a back burner in my brain, but hold no real threats most of the time. I want something more, but my mind always feels a bit muddled and dull as though everything ( Read more... )

When I feel like I am coming undone in anger or frustration I always feel like I am dripping fire from my very fingertips and at any moment I might spontaneously combust. That's typically when I disappear into some other world via books or films. I find more and more I go back in particular to Jane Austen ( Read more... )

Do you ever have one of those days where you feel like someone contracted cancer on purpose just to eff up your day. I know, I know it sounds awful, but something along those lines has happened leaving me feeling distracted and pouty like a kid who didn't get what they wanted at the nice toy store and ended up with some piece of crap toy from the ( Read more... )

Well my wedding has come and gone now. It was April 10th in Las Vegas, NV at the Artisan Boutique Hotel. It started at one-ish...the ish being I was running late. Funny that I was late since that is something I hate and am always early. Now that I have had a few weeks for it all to be absorbed I am truly happy with how it all came out. I was ( Read more... )

Well here I am again. It seems longer and longer in between visits to good old LJ. I think LJ is sometimes like the last remnant of that other life. Those other people that once were so influential to my very existence seem more like a weird hazy half remembered dream. I'm not sure what led me here this Friday afternoon. My life seems so very ( Read more... )

It is interesting to see the cyclic times of our lives. The last entry I made was when I had been laid off last year in July. Guess where I am now? Umm yah back at the place that laid me off. LOL. While not doing the job I previously had, I very much enjoy learning new things and of course having work again. I was having this conversation today ( Read more... )

So here is a brief little update. I was laid off of work last week. My job is being given to someone somewhere in India which will cut costs for the company and increase cash flow. I understand it is survival and all, but I would like to officially say that is partially why our economy is in the toilet. Until this moment I must say I never realized ( Read more... )

I'm all revved up for two short trips to CoMo this summer. Actually I leave for the first one in exactly two weeks from today for Kira's bachlorette/4th of July/bridal shower Bar-B-Q shin dig. The other trip in early August is for the wedding itself. I have taken the position of Maid of Honor along with Lynze who will be Matron of Honor...though I ( Read more... )

There are moments where I feel so inadequate I could cry. I found out I got the apartment I wanted, but with conditions... meaning a larger deposit. Which sucks because I have to come up with another $1450 by the end of May and still pay all the other bills. I have that lump in my throat that I keep pushing down. It is so much stress. I take care ( Read more... )

"Would everyone be so kind as to stop getting married and procreating or procreating and then getting married. Thank You ( Read more... )