Is it pregnancy hormones that makes me nuts? I doubt myself so much lately. Does he only want me? Does he still find me attractive? Do I love him as much as I tell myself I do? He drives me absolutely crazy!!! The sad thing is ...this is both in a positive and negative way ( Read more... )

No longer am I able to talk about things we shared. Once my friend, then my lover, friend, and companion, yet no longer. So many years were shared. So many good memories, some trials and tribulations. Now there is nothing. Tossed aside, that's how I felt for the last few years. Always something else to do, my schedule and yours no longer compatible ( Read more... )

I sit at my computer occasionally glancing out of my window at the sky. My heart feels heavy and I'm tired all the time again ( Read more... )

I so badly need to post my thoughts. I haven't been "right" for two weeks now. The panic attacks are back with a vengence and I seem to be taking my "nerve" pills constantly. My thoughts race through my mind faster than I can either type or pen them. My journal has sat by my bedside for weeks...neglected because I just sit there and stare at it ( Read more... )

I've been here now since the 14th of July, in the same house as my inlaws. Things are great, don't get me wrong, but I need my space. I feel trapped, suffocated, and depressed. I walk from my inlaws to my house constantly, just to stare at it and imagine what it will look like once it's finished. The view is incredible, the valley and mountain ( Read more... )

It has been forever since I've posted here. Almost 4 months! 
Our house still hasn't sold , and since my father passed away I now have to sell his as well.
The new house is coming along nicely. We should be living in it by mid August. The kids and I leave on
July 6th, never to return to our Coventry home again. I'm excited and scared.
I have to live ( Read more... )

As much as it kills me to admit it, my daughter is growing up. 
I got to "meet" her boyfriend through the internet last week.He has a
great sense of humor. Me, being me, just had to pester the crap out
of the kid to see how he'd respond. He did VERY well, it killed me !!
He is absolutely hilarious, I think I hate him!!!LOL. No really.. NOT :)
He ( Read more... )

It's coming faster. My house is on the market,and will be completed and ready for viewing this weekend ( Read more... )

Ten more minutes ( Read more... )

I don't know what to think. I certainly have no idea what to feel. 
I am soo confused.
My parents have been divorced since I was 8 years old. My mom 
left my dad for my step father. My relationship with my step dad
has always been hot and cold. I love him very much, but tend to
judge him. My father has always thrown him in my face. I call my
step dad.. ( Read more... )