i went on another bender where I drank a fifth a day for weeks. It ended dec 29th. Ive been dried out for 77 days now.

I keep getting violent painful shocks, mostly in my feet, but sometimes all over. It would seem to be neuropathy, related to my diabetes, but the diabetes has never been under better control. I take meds for it and every day my ( Read more... )

1. I have diabetes. I havent tested my blood sugar in a long time because i couldnt draw enough blood, and the tester would only give me an error message. Finally, this past saturday i got a reading-my blood sugar was FUCKING 400.

If you dont know anything about this-average/good/normal is between 90 and 120. I looked up 400, and results were "you ( Read more... )

Mother, brother in law, and best friend are all fuckin trump supporters.

fml. And none of them are stupid...theyre just FUCKING CRAZY. Which i guess is enough.

I LOVE PLAYSTATION NOW.

Basically it's like netflix for video games, but cheaper. It's $10 a month, $5 if you pay in advance for a year, totally worth it either way. If you bought 2 brand new games in a year it would be $120. $60 if you got one. They have a huge library of games you can play online. You lose the games if you stop using the service ( Read more... )

A lot of people (probably most) wake up one day and realize that their life isnt really worth living and theyre never going to amount to anything. Some people kill themselves, others think "meh, whatever, i still have to go to work."

"The Irishman".

I think its very hard for people to go into something open minded. They either go in expecting it to be great, or expecting it to be shit. Most of the reviews of "the irishman" either say it's great, or shit. Im a big scorcese fan. i saw it. i dont think its great, but its okay/good, its not shit. My thoughts on it.

1. the length. ( Read more... )

i think the problem was neither of us was honest about what we had, and what we wanted.

I dont need to see inside someone's soul. i dont want someone to know everything about me, and vice versa. I want something light. Easy. Casual.

She needs something SUPER DEEP AND SERIOUS and INTIMATE.

Fuck that. im tired of people and their bullshit, and i ( Read more... )

i love how every breakup turns into the super bowl, for the spectators ( Read more... )

maybe thats what I have. i dont really feel or enjoy anything. But I wasnt always like this. I probably burned out the pleasure circuits of my brain after decades of alcohol use.

this song really makes me miss being young.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kaDMYqUbOPU