but i am stronger for all of this ( Read more... )

its is crazy how much life changes in such short time ( Read more... )

i dream about my dad a lot. when i was growing up, every morning he'd be in and out of my room while i was sleeping so he could water my plants, take out my trash, etc. well i felt like i was in and out of consciousness and i heard him come into my room and i couldnt see clearly, i kept blinking, but i saw him walking around my room, watering ( Read more... )

my dads toxicology report came back and apparently he was all fucked up. way over the legal alcohol limit along with a death concoction of methadone and other pills. so who knows man ( Read more... )

on june 11th, my sister called me and was screaming into the phone, bawling, and i couldnt understand a thing she was saying besides "dad did it, dad did it, oh my god, he did it" i immediately started bawling. my dad killed himself. im bawling as im typing this right now. i still cant believe its true. but here are the things i know about it. my ( Read more... )

its crazy how much shit has changed for me haha ( Read more... )

so my manager, stilian, is from bulgaria and has lived a totally different life than me. he is 20 years old and already owns his own house, has amazing credit, and just all around has his shit together. congrats, good for him, but he is so fucking judgmental and narrowminded it kills me. he knows i smoke weed and he was saying how he looks down on ( Read more... )

seriously. fuck today ( Read more... )

so its been a minute since i wrote anything ( Read more... )

It is days like today when I feel way too cooped up. It is gorgeous out, I'm sitting outside right now. Too gorgeous to be in Mel's cold house, sewing. I want to be out here, maybe taking a walk through the park, or maybe just sitting here on her stairs enjoying the heat of the sun. I am so ready for winter to be over ( Read more... )