slowly.
so its been a minute since i wrote anything.
sydney and i have been partying it up. last night was pretty crazy. she had a show at smiths olde bar and she made $105 which is pretty ballin. and she did an amazing job. i had my sisters ID so we went to the cavern and got our drank on a little. then sydneys friend elizabeth said something about doing coke and i was already a little tipsy so i just went along with it. so we ended up doing coke for our first time. for the whole night. haha. its like every time i blinked more coke appeared. i know better than to get hooked on that shit. seeing my mom be a total cokehead has totally made the drug a turn off for me. and its expensive. and it made me feel like a bonafide druggie to be snorting shit. but it was fun. haha. we were chillin with these guys cean and robin and i put my number in robins phone mostly as a drug connect but he started texting me and saying we should hang out sometime and blahblahblah. hes cute.
onwards. matthew now has an apartment with his girlfriend of 3 months. im not going to lie, when he told me, i started bawling. and pretty much cried the rest of the day. and the next day. so to cheer myself up, i went and got 'life is beautiful' tattooed on my inner forearm. and then on saturday i was at coopers and we got into an argument on the phone where i was basically like 'hey, its not fair to me or her or you that you keep telling me you love me and that you wish it was me moving into the apartment with you and that you love me' and today is the first time ive talked to him in almost a week after that happening. my stomach still hurts to think about it. fuck her, i worked so hard for what we had and he was never able to contribute and now he's able to and shes getting all of the things i deserved. fuck her, for real.
working in cvs photolab sucks. i guess i never wrote that my boss, jay, fucking text message fired me and then wouldnt pay me so i couldnt pay rent so i got evicted and moved into sydneys mothers house with her. then jay wrote me an insulting email telling me that i have no useful skills and that he basically ran out of things i could do and that hes never seen someone move so slow or be so disrespectful. so in a nutshell, fuck jay, hard.
what else what else.
i like living with sydney. i eat all organic food now since thats all her mom buys. and ive been working out. and wearing dresses. and curling my hair. it is a nice thing.
my dad sent me $50 for valentines day. that was sweet.
i went over to my sisters house and my nephew finn who is like a year and a half old hadnt seen me in like a week and so when he does see me he starts screaming LALA!! LAAAALAAAA! (thats what he calls me) and it was very cute and made me happy.
guess thats all i have to say.
sydney and i have been partying it up. last night was pretty crazy. she had a show at smiths olde bar and she made $105 which is pretty ballin. and she did an amazing job. i had my sisters ID so we went to the cavern and got our drank on a little. then sydneys friend elizabeth said something about doing coke and i was already a little tipsy so i just went along with it. so we ended up doing coke for our first time. for the whole night. haha. its like every time i blinked more coke appeared. i know better than to get hooked on that shit. seeing my mom be a total cokehead has totally made the drug a turn off for me. and its expensive. and it made me feel like a bonafide druggie to be snorting shit. but it was fun. haha. we were chillin with these guys cean and robin and i put my number in robins phone mostly as a drug connect but he started texting me and saying we should hang out sometime and blahblahblah. hes cute.
onwards. matthew now has an apartment with his girlfriend of 3 months. im not going to lie, when he told me, i started bawling. and pretty much cried the rest of the day. and the next day. so to cheer myself up, i went and got 'life is beautiful' tattooed on my inner forearm. and then on saturday i was at coopers and we got into an argument on the phone where i was basically like 'hey, its not fair to me or her or you that you keep telling me you love me and that you wish it was me moving into the apartment with you and that you love me' and today is the first time ive talked to him in almost a week after that happening. my stomach still hurts to think about it. fuck her, i worked so hard for what we had and he was never able to contribute and now he's able to and shes getting all of the things i deserved. fuck her, for real.
working in cvs photolab sucks. i guess i never wrote that my boss, jay, fucking text message fired me and then wouldnt pay me so i couldnt pay rent so i got evicted and moved into sydneys mothers house with her. then jay wrote me an insulting email telling me that i have no useful skills and that he basically ran out of things i could do and that hes never seen someone move so slow or be so disrespectful. so in a nutshell, fuck jay, hard.
what else what else.
i like living with sydney. i eat all organic food now since thats all her mom buys. and ive been working out. and wearing dresses. and curling my hair. it is a nice thing.
my dad sent me $50 for valentines day. that was sweet.
i went over to my sisters house and my nephew finn who is like a year and a half old hadnt seen me in like a week and so when he does see me he starts screaming LALA!! LAAAALAAAA! (thats what he calls me) and it was very cute and made me happy.
guess thats all i have to say.