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I am so sad
And I haven't been this way since I was actively writing in this journal, the pain is stunning, the depression physically hurts and I can't believe I'm here again. Sad and cranky and sick of my own emotional torment. -
Life is hot
not in crack town
I'm almost sad I don't use this little guy anymore but since it's tied to every fan girl group I could find and all my friend's High School LJ's I sort of look at this place as a very well preserved version of my room circa 2005.
Sometimes I clean up but I think I'm just going to leave it be. -
Am I growing? Evolving? Am I?
So I'm crazy... Pretty much, thinking I know better than those that have come before me, thinking trying similar approaches will have wildly different results... I don't know, I'm not getting it I think. And blanket statements are dumb, over analyzing usually yields very little, and straight hair changes everyone's opinion ( Read more... ) -
I'm just laying my soul out on the table...
Just felt like this needed to be put out in the world... whatever... I should probably keep all this crap to myself ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Nothing on the emotional front to report... maybe that's why I haven't been emo-ing on LJ lately... or maybe I've just not cared enough to update here. Not many people read my stuff here, not many people know this place still exists I guess. Also I did the no meds for about two weeks or so... Yeah I still need them... can't stand people, or get ( Read more... ) -
The Curious case of the world around me
So i saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and was reminded of why I want to be in film. The film was exquisite and brought a story to life in a complex and unique way... It touched my soul on levels reserved only for real memories and an occasional line from a very well written book. Not many movies hit me that deep, but this one did... Maybe ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Untimely Passing
Christopher Reeve
why?
Because I was in love with him since I was a small child. I saw him in Sleeping Beauty with Bernadette Peters (and her wild curly like mine hair) And just kind of knew he was special. A being that deserved to be in the spotlight, a man with an incredible spirit, and a wonderous soul... I loved him even after the accident... I ( Read more... ) -
Feel like...
I don't know... I feel like I'm in some sort of turmoil. Like the wonderful times I had are about to stop. I don't know why exactly, but it's like the bottom is about to drop out of all this, and I will be left falling. Tumbling toward the ground and when land it will be in pieces, ugly gooey bits that do not warrant further description ( Read more... ) -
Just sad
I don't know, I'm just trying to stay a float, and I have so much to do, and to focus on and inside my head is Gershwin playing, my scripts stirring to jazz, and spinning around and around. And to learn how to waltz so when an attractive man who knows how to waltz asks me to dance, I can ( Read more... )
