Well been sober 98 days today. All in all life has been good. been looking for a job and going to school. quit smoking cigs 7 days ago so right when I got everything going well I rock the boat in my own mind by reminding myself of my biggest regret. Why can't I just forget about her? I guess I could but then i purposely remind myself and my heart ( Read more... )

Cant sleep every night, I only think about the same things. When is it going to get better, I lose hope each day. Why can't I over come this. I want to change I want things to get better but I just dont expect them too. I want to just get out of this town and start over, but with all my legal problems its impossible. It sucks that i dont want wake ( Read more... )

I'm off to rehab for 90 days in less then a week. Just got out of jail yesterday for third time in the last year. so after rehab moving down south so wont anyone for a long time.

so certain events have made me have to chose between 2 paths which should be simple but it's not. I have to be completely sober and live the strait and narrow or go off the deep end and fuck it all. guest I have until march. I let everyone I love down anyways, whats a little more disapointment, selfish I know but nothing I do works out anyways so ( Read more... )

My life has become pointless everyday Im in too much pain to move or do much of anything. I just hope the pain will go away and that I could be normal again but I dont see that happening. Besides pain I seem to continue to fuck up anything I ever have going for me. I think I'm scared of being happy I'm too use to people letting me down I have ( Read more... )

Some times life takes you to a fork in the road and there isn't enough advice in the world to help you realize what to do. 

I really hope this is all over i cant handle it there is no point i fuck everything up going good so i hope i sleep for ever 

My life has made a 180, i feel and im extremly happy hopefully i can make it stay this way. i want to do things Adventure and learn something new all i know is im going to try and make these next few months amazing anyone who wants to join me in my adventure to happiness is more then welcome.

So life is fucked but good hard to explain im really happy so thats good but instability in my life i catching up with me. Cant wait a couple months for this to be alright.

i have 2 LJ's woot woot, but ya this one has some funny old posts in it