Life goes up and then sideways?
Well been sober 98 days today. All in all life has been good. been looking for a job and going to school. quit smoking cigs 7 days ago so right when I got everything going well I rock the boat in my own mind by reminding myself of my biggest regret. Why can't I just forget about her? I guess I could but then i purposely remind myself and my heart sinks. I have been working on not regretting the past, I have let go of resentments I have distanced myself from bad people and situations and I try daily to be a better person, but once i see old picture everything comes rushing back into my head about the mistakes I made and what I through away. Why do I continue to rock the boat when life gets good? Do I like the chaos in my mind, am I afraid of peace of mind or do I just think I don't deserve peace of mind? All I know is i wish these feelings would go away!!!!