Decidely choosing to be a busy little bee has helped things in my mind tremendously.  I am no longer thinking about it every SINGLE day or analyzing where we went off track, where I took it to far and why you stopped it all.  There are the excruciatingly quiet times where it continuously cycles through my head on a constant loop.  It's unbearable ( Read more... )

It has been a while since I have found it necessary to take up time in my evening to post.  Most nights I come back, collapse, maybe eat something and veg.  Then I get a call from my guy (not anymore apparently) and we talk until the "early morning" of the next day and then I fall asleep for a few hours....

But for some reason I felt the need just ( Read more... )

I have quite possibly had the most shitty three weeks of my entire life.  And I'm not going to delve into it because everyone thats going to read this is already clued in.  No need to rehash, capiche?!  So, what else has been going on ( Read more... )

Beyond what I normally feel like which is stressed and anxious and tired.... today is just not my day.  I had a little minor car accident lsat night on my way home that just sucked.  I'm fine, the other chic is fine, let's hope she doesn't sue me even though she was stopped in the MIDDLE of the road for no reason.... and didn't move and I didn't ( Read more... )

hmmmm ( Read more... )

 4 Things you may not know about me
Meme time!
Four Jobs I have had in my life:
Mervyns Sales associate
Babysitter
Grocery store clerk
Spa Coordinator

Four movies I've watched more than once:

Father of the Bride
French Kiss
Gladiator
The Story of Us

Four places I have lived:

Portland, OR
Chico, CA
Richmond, CA
Martinez, CA

Four TV shows that I watch:

Grey's Anatomy
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It just struck me how often I run away.  How often I get sick of something or do my whoa is me thing and bounce!  I take a break from friends who I think wouldn't care if I was there or not, I take a break from family, mainly my parents when they are being too pushy and overbearing and I take a break from men... on more than one occassion.  One for ( Read more... )

My boss can be described as really amazing or a real bitch ( Read more... )

... that had too much going on and just needed some time to breathe.  But she really didn't want it any other way!  It really boggles my mind how I got to this point in things... But I am thankful that I am in the stage I'm in with the people in my life that I have and with all the experiences under my belt that I have.  Currently, I travel when I ( Read more... )

I am quite angry about several things right now that seem beyond trivial considering the things that are going on with my family.  My life and the stupid things that go on in it are just not as important as my family.  Totally not ( Read more... )