ANGRY
I am quite angry about several things right now that seem beyond trivial considering the things that are going on with my family. My life and the stupid things that go on in it are just not as important as my family. Totally not.
But I am still pissed off.... at like why people don't call back after I leave messages and texts and calls and what the hell ELSE do I have to do?!? Either say you don't want to talk to me, tell me what I did wrong or own up to whatever the hell is going on with ya'll.... annoying.
I am angry that I get a freaking ulcer when my boss walks through our office door, or when Brooke tells us that she just woke up and is emailing us stuff to do... I get annoyed that the new assistant, who has MY job that I was promised is so nice and I have so much fun working with her, but she still has MY job and there is nothing I can do to change that. I am angry that this dream job sucks so much.
I am angry that I don't have more money to do for my family like I want to, and to treat my Mom for her birthday like I want to.... I should have managed better, I should have planned better, I should know how to fucking budget by now.... I just don't know where it all goes! Well lately to travel, my gym membership and food.... hmmmmmm.
I am SO angry that I may be seeing my ex this weekend... he works at the resort I am taking mom to and I HATE the fact that I am playing the ex game... look hotter, more accomplished (both actually true) than he does so he feels like an ass and a shithead for being a shithead and an ass in our relationship, while still looking BEYOND hot so that all his co-workers and friends will be talking about me and how I looked and what I've done and how stupid he is loooooonnnnnng after I have gone. DAMN IT.
I'm angry at myself for not pushing myself harder towards my goals.... what am I going to do languish in workdom until I'm 55?!? I need to get back on track with the Dream Machine!
I'm angry that I am dating and having fun and all I want is to find someone special like everyone else has... that person to make me laugh and sit on my couch and watch movies with me, escort me to premieres and work functions, go to dinner with me late at night, and stay up with me in bed talking or...... other stuff. I want to be talking til 4 in the morning with someone that isn't just a fucking friend! I am so tired of this shit..... I'm 23 years old... And I am already over dating for fun.... it's not as fun as I thought.
I'm angry that God has been strangely silent lately to ALL of my requests.
What's up with that? Are you even THERE?!?!?!
But I am still pissed off.... at like why people don't call back after I leave messages and texts and calls and what the hell ELSE do I have to do?!? Either say you don't want to talk to me, tell me what I did wrong or own up to whatever the hell is going on with ya'll.... annoying.
I am angry that I get a freaking ulcer when my boss walks through our office door, or when Brooke tells us that she just woke up and is emailing us stuff to do... I get annoyed that the new assistant, who has MY job that I was promised is so nice and I have so much fun working with her, but she still has MY job and there is nothing I can do to change that. I am angry that this dream job sucks so much.
I am angry that I don't have more money to do for my family like I want to, and to treat my Mom for her birthday like I want to.... I should have managed better, I should have planned better, I should know how to fucking budget by now.... I just don't know where it all goes! Well lately to travel, my gym membership and food.... hmmmmmm.
I am SO angry that I may be seeing my ex this weekend... he works at the resort I am taking mom to and I HATE the fact that I am playing the ex game... look hotter, more accomplished (both actually true) than he does so he feels like an ass and a shithead for being a shithead and an ass in our relationship, while still looking BEYOND hot so that all his co-workers and friends will be talking about me and how I looked and what I've done and how stupid he is loooooonnnnnng after I have gone. DAMN IT.
I'm angry at myself for not pushing myself harder towards my goals.... what am I going to do languish in workdom until I'm 55?!? I need to get back on track with the Dream Machine!
I'm angry that I am dating and having fun and all I want is to find someone special like everyone else has... that person to make me laugh and sit on my couch and watch movies with me, escort me to premieres and work functions, go to dinner with me late at night, and stay up with me in bed talking or...... other stuff. I want to be talking til 4 in the morning with someone that isn't just a fucking friend! I am so tired of this shit..... I'm 23 years old... And I am already over dating for fun.... it's not as fun as I thought.
I'm angry that God has been strangely silent lately to ALL of my requests.
What's up with that? Are you even THERE?!?!?!