does checking for any updates on lj every half hour make me an addict?

i'm tired of feeling ugly. the fears of being ugly soon become manifest, and it's never a pretty sight ( Read more... )

so it turns out that i don't have to work at best buy today! this is the first day off i've had in awhile. now i have about 8 hours of free time and i'm left in confusion: (what?? free... time?? explain!) it's strange how we're always so busy that when we have nothing to do we don't know what to do because we're so conditioned to always doing ( Read more... )

i'm working at the library today and i'm dressed like a pseudogoth girl. it's so amazingly fun.

i'm stuck at the library because my car battery's dead.

i'm in love with this song, by the way:

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i am not well today. i feel very dizzy and lightheaded and confused. i did drink last night but i was hardly drunk. i'm thinking that it may have been because i haven't been taking my medicine as i should. i had to cancel my lunchdate with chris which leaves me feeling sad ( Read more... )

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everyone go look at andy's journal:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/achalanatha

he's complaining that no one ever looks at it so i'm fixing the problem.

and i'm drunk.

it seems like there's a lot of drama in my life right now. i'm living with regret and confusion and i'm becoming more aware of my own depravity. i think that i may have forgotten how broken i am. needless to say, none of this is pleasant.

so i finally caved in and bought the new morrissey album. he's done it again. his honesty and eloquence and willingness to just be in the face of repression and ridicule have always amazed me. listening to it has inspired me to dig up his older albums, some with the smiths, some by himself. i was reading lyrics to cae last night over the phone ( Read more... )