i'm kinda really sad ashton is leaving. like what the hell....he was my world for like a year and he's still in my life now he's just gonna be gone - seriously gone for three fucking months. wtf. the reality of it all is kicking in. who the fuck am i gonna be able to call up wtf.

I wonder when i'm ever going to get over ashton, like stop thinking about the memories of me and him. I think I have like a curse or something over me because every guy i talk to now...falls for me. it's very true. I just wonder when i'm gonna find the guy who makes me WANT to have a boyfriend ( Read more... )

got my fucking credit card statement...fucking 118. ugh

25 for gas. 
Brandis present  ($50)
$50 for the Nelly Furtado Concert tickets
THEN i've got to touch up my nails & pedicure ($60)
white bathing suit  ($35)
food ($30)
Mothers day present ($20)
credit card ($118)

390
-25 (gas)
365
-118 (credit card bill)
247
-50 (brandis bday present)
195
-50 (concert ticket)
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So I told Josh i'm not ready for the responsibility of a boyfriend, and boy isn't that the truth. I really like him, he's such a great guy and everything but this summer i've got WAY to much going on...this entry will basically explain why I can't have a boyfriend... hoorah

Allright. I've got two paychecks this month. May 4th & May 18th, each equal ( Read more... )

i'm gonna actually sit here and pour my heart out. haha, first off i realize i write on here because it's like helping me get everything out and in the open and quite frankly, i'd rather type it then write but THEN i realized that my friends actually read this and you guys know whats actually going on like beyond what i tell people outloud....yeah ( Read more... )

You know what's scary? i found the person i'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with.  You know how people that are married, engaged, or about to get engaged tell you "you just know" when they're asked "how do you know he/she is the one?" like, you dont really have an answer except..."you just know"  I never really understood what it meant ( Read more... )

i'm like in a world of emotional confusion right now ( Read more... )

i've got so much shit to pay for.....like seriously, i CAN NOT go random shopping just because i HAVE money. ugh. like seriously, the month of may is gonna be so balla, but it's gonna take a SERIOUS toll on my bank account just look at this. Then i'll tell you about my day :D

So holy shit. i've got like way to much to do in May.

May 4th - beach condo ( Read more... )

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, i cant sleep. now thats something out of the ordinary - not. so i'm like super scared now for my tattoo. i was super excited for it, but what if - it's ugly? what if its not what i expected, but worse? i'm so scared!!!!! i'm sure it'll look great but still. eek! 3 pm today is when i go in with ariel to get it! then i'm gonna ( Read more... )

aaaaaaaaaah. went to the tattoo place, all booked for friday...so i got the appointment sunday at 3pm. i'm soo excited for it, like i dont even care about the pain - at all ( Read more... )