I got $3000 in scholarships....which wasn't near enough ( Read more... )

I hate that I try to reinvent myself continually in order to find some kind of meaning to my existence ( Read more... )

But I will start off with them anyways.

I have realized that I have no idea what I'm doing when it comes to them. I know I'm not ready at this point, but I still like getting 5 minute crushes.

Just cuz they're cute. (The boys. Not the crushes.)

But I don't want to keep looking at the self of the last five minutes and think that I'm ridiculous.

I'm ( Read more... )

I'm listening to my brother snore under the table like he's going to suffocate himself ( Read more... )

The clear blue lighter in his hand seemed so insignificant. It was a cloudy day. The blue of the sky could not be seen, but the dark patterns of light and gray fringed with the branches of the yellowing trees refracted on the plastic like it was intentional. This morning he had gotten up before Gina, as he'd normally done each morning, grabbing his ( Read more... )

It's taken this long for me to actually feel...single. I don't have any attachment to anyone, and anything's possible. I love it. I know eventually I'll give this up for my next life phase, but for now I'm going to enjoy it.

I also talked to my dad about directing potential interested ins to him. :)

And they gave me a couple of loans, which I declined, leaving the original amount of free money they gave me before. In short, the payment contract is due November 7th, and the deadlines for the scholarships are November 10th. I'd have to get the maximum amount of money from both scholarships to be able to go. Since I won't have a guarantee for the ( Read more... )

So... I'm about to move on. Well. I am currently in the mental process of actually making the move-on. Because although emotionally I'm mostly no longer entwined with him or hurt by him... there's this part of me I guess that hasn't let go. That's been hoping, that one day ( Read more... )

Is the title of a poem I wrote for class today. Haha. I'm starting to grow fond of my writing classes. Besides the reflections I have to write ( Read more... )

For some delightful reason, this week I've been making it to my bus stops as my bus is driving up. And I started swimming three days a week to train for a lifeguard test in less than a month.

The London budget came. The grand total is $11,960. So if I get to London, you'll know it's because God forked over some significant cash.