Jesus strikes again!
I'm listening to my brother snore under the table like he's going to suffocate himself.
Anyways, after doing the whole cycle of leaving Jesus and then being drawn back to him, I've realized that once again, I can really trust him. He's trustworthy. Once I was worried I would end up marrying a guy just because I didn't want to hurt his feelings. Shortly after he went to public school and I never saw him anymore. I was afraid Sam wasn't the one. Jesus took care of that too by pretty much telling me to break up with him. I've been afraid about boys and that I will mess things up-- the truth is, I CAN mess things up. But Jesus will consistently fix it. So it doesn't really matter what I do, Jesus's plan is what's going to happen.
Guys don't stress me out. But marriage does. Which is interesting... but then I'm not ready anyways.
Also- I said once that I needed to work on things with my family before I ever got married... I haven't even been thinking about that whole marriage requirement thing, or trying to "work" on things with my family... but it's gotten so much better... I feel love towards them and love toward me. God is good.
Anyways, after doing the whole cycle of leaving Jesus and then being drawn back to him, I've realized that once again, I can really trust him. He's trustworthy. Once I was worried I would end up marrying a guy just because I didn't want to hurt his feelings. Shortly after he went to public school and I never saw him anymore. I was afraid Sam wasn't the one. Jesus took care of that too by pretty much telling me to break up with him. I've been afraid about boys and that I will mess things up-- the truth is, I CAN mess things up. But Jesus will consistently fix it. So it doesn't really matter what I do, Jesus's plan is what's going to happen.
Guys don't stress me out. But marriage does. Which is interesting... but then I'm not ready anyways.
Also- I said once that I needed to work on things with my family before I ever got married... I haven't even been thinking about that whole marriage requirement thing, or trying to "work" on things with my family... but it's gotten so much better... I feel love towards them and love toward me. God is good.