so i got a great job, doing nothing sitting at a desk all day making 7.50 an hour.

the problem?

I hate it.

Like no other job I've had before I HATE IT!

I've only been here for a week, do I quit?

I went to Amy's visitation today. God...she didnt even look like her. She looked so....fake. Oh god...my baby. I loved that girl like no one would ever believe. She is the first person I let know the real me in like...5 years. and....god it just hurts....This is why I dont let people close to me. I dont let it hurt me. I cant let it hurt me, things ( Read more... )

Just wanted to post a couple of pictures of Olivia. Here lately I've been meaning to update but its like....blah. I have the time but just not the energy....does that even make sense? lol. Oh well heres my little girl!( Miss Olivia Grace, heres the world.... )

I LOVE EBAY!!!!!!

uhh today has been filled with an unsettling amount of questions filling my head. It's just really weird how when I just want a quiet day of being lazy Im questioning everything in my life. Ehh tis odd. Its like I've been questioning who I am once again in this part of my life here recently and its making no sense. I have nooo idea how to explain ( Read more... )

A while back, I believe it was last week. James, Jonathen, and I were driving around Grafton. We went to James' old neighborhood and I became totally freaked out. Normally I have gut intuitions of things that are going to happen, but this wasn't a gut intuition. I saw images of something that has either happened/or will happen. Now I cant remember ( Read more... )

as I realize...friends who I thought were friends arent. This school...well thats a long story. right now I want to live my life day by day but I cant. I need to but Im so...worried about what Im doing, who Im doing it with, where Im going..that Im so caught up into the moment I need to back off and I dont know how. I need someone to talk to...but ( Read more... )

ok altough my day really sucks tonights gonna be major cool. I'm going out with two of my friends. Lara cant go. Her mom's a lolly gagging sissy la-la. damn. oh well. We're going out to eat and than to 'The Animal'. We're leaving at 4:30 to drop my sis off and than I dont know. I dont wanna eat dinner that early. Oh well. I really just wanna go to ( Read more... )

. I went out today with my bestestest friendest in the whole widestest worldest. LOL! I love ya Lara!(dNq) dont ask its an inside joke!. but anyway. Lara, me, and my sis were paintin my fence and we all got in a paint fight IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN!. Im not really sure what to say anymore. Im kinda Uncomfortable now. My tummy kinda hurts and my fingers ( Read more... )