so this weekend was very strange. church was nice. it was refreshing on one hand to be back around friends and loved ones, but on the other hand it still hurts every time i walk through that building and remember when i used to do so with her holding my hand. and remembering how she once told me that she missed going to "our church" when she was ( Read more... )

i can't do this anymore ( Read more... )

i'm starting to find myself. last night i realized that there are things i do and things i like that don't have anything to do with other people ( Read more... )

does anybody write in this damn thing anymore? maybe i should just give up.

how long will i check for a message from her on my phone? how long will i expect her to read any of this and reply? how long will i wait for her to come back ( Read more... )

i think it's time to burn some shit.

i don't want to go back to Lynchburg. i don't ever want to see her again... i don't ever want to think about her or know about her or have anything to do with her ever again. if i know i don't have to see her and that there is no chance i would ever have to see her then i could move on with my life ( Read more... )

i love my God more than anything right now. in the terrible times. in the pain. in the crap. in the i-don't-know-where-i-am-or-where-i'm-going. He is in control. He loves me more than i could ever imagine or reciprocate ( Read more... )

Simba the Cat

this is Simba. he may end up being my cat soon. i sincerely hope so.


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le sigh ( Read more... )