i'm always going to love her. i'm waiting to wake up and have it not hurt. i'm waiting to go one day... just one day without thinking about her. i'm waiting for the healing to make a bigger impact on my heart. i know that God is working. i know that what's going on in the background that i don't understand is working out for my benefit. i know He ( Read more... )

i have decided i don't like Van Hagar. David Lee Roth has my allegiance. pandora and the music genome project are amazing.

that is all.

i found a list of flaws that i found in myself and other people and i threw it away because... bon voyage ( Read more... )

so... a LOT happened yesterday... lot of fun, some not so much. i don't feel like getting into it. happy birthday america.

i need more to drink... i need... things i just am not comfortable telling everyone... at least not people who will read this or could possibly read this or may go back and read this or anything of that sort.

i need things that i can't describe.

who am i kidding. everyone knows. i have no subtlety.

sitting in panera bread listening to death cab in the middle of the day in the burg. not much else to describe. i miss her terribly. i can't imagine how my next relationship will be because i don't want one. i'm really bored and miss friday's and all the people at friday's. and... my roommate drank all my rum ( Read more... )

i just realized that i had the date for Amanda and my first "anniversary" wrong. it would have been the 22nd of april, not the 15th. not tax day. how could i have missed that? not like it matters now though, right?

this is your life and it's ending one minute at a time...

i'm not in the mood to compete. i'll let life come to me as it will. whatever happens happens. i don't have anything left in me. no fight. i'm not ready to fight again. i'm not ready for anything yet. i only want it if it's easy to get.

that may mean i don't get anything.

i'm ready for all of this to be over.

something's gotta change
things cannot stay the same

long day at work. stupid fucking tables. customers tended to suck today including a table leaving with no tip. lots of bitchy people for no reason. glad that it's over ( Read more... )