Today my dad told me that I cant do anything right because I am so stupid,and that he wishes he could beat the stupidity out of me and that he hopes I hate him and more similar things for about a half hour....and I officially decided that im not talking to him at all anymore for a long long time,and as much as I am mad at him for being horrible.... ( Read more... )

today I felt so lonely...but that has nothing to do with this update...i read all my old livejournal updates tonight and I swear I almost cried...a couple nights ago when I saw jacks mannequin....my eyes were welling up during one of their songs and I had to hold my tears back....life right now really has me....all those old updates about all these ( Read more... )

MMM so yeah lately everything this has gone back and fourth from bad to okay ( Read more... )

I dont know if anyone is even on LJ anymore.
I havent updated in forever.
Its now 1:45 am and I am prolly not going to fall asleep till about 4 or 5 am againnnn for school.
I almost cried at work while doing the dishes tonight,and when I came home while I organized my school binders,Im scared that when I try to fall asleep tonight,that it might happen ( Read more... )

SO camp was amazing....I cannot describe all the fun stuff I did...we freaking climbed on top of the huggggge church, 2 times...skated till about 5 am,stole the golf carts from the staff,drove them through the lobby of the churchhhh,and road tripped two hours to camp and back with 3 of my really good friends. IF THIS ISNT WHAT BEING YOUNG IS ALL ( Read more... )

I SERIOUSLY really wish I could say I dont care anymore.But I care so much.I dont get it.

The past 2 days.I think I ate around 6 mini carrots.and thats it.I hate being sickkkkkkkk.

Why does every single great day,have to be ruined because of something stupid that i realized.

Its prolly such a selfish thing too.

I could cry.I am so Emo.

I do not know how to describe the feeling I have right now...I think its mostly a bad feeling,its like worried/scared/careless/anxious feeling and I dont like it at alllll.....I dont know what i want to be when I grow up,and I dont know who i wanna be right now...and I dont know what I stand for,and I dont know who Im mad at and im not sure why,I ( Read more... )

So its supposed to rain till tuesday....and that is the prolly worst news ever. I dont know why but the wheather affects me so much it insane...its honestly like something i hate more then anytihng...when everythings wet and stuff....I do not know how everyone Loves thunderstorms....i honestly would rather of a beautiful blue sky anyday.people are ( Read more... )