Almost two years I haven't looked at you, Livejournal you have not changed. Almost two years and I'm still wishing I'd have more interesting to say than a blip, just because. I still get fed up with the incessant use of pronouns and figurative ambiguity in the rants that I read. Oh wait, I'm doing it too ( Read more... )

I like to pretend like I put a lot of effort into my school work, but I don’t, which is probably why I'm doing so terribly. I wish I could make myself read and study on days that I don’t really have to, like Katie. I wish I felt the need to attend every lecture like its my dream job, like Alicia, instead of making excuses that seem perfectly viable ( Read more... )

I dont have time to do anything I actually want to do. I dont want to hang out with my boyfriend which is something that shoudnt happen at a period of a bit past two months. Honeymoon is supposed to last for three, and if it doesnt, its doomed to fail from the start. I want to draw, read, or run. I have to study, study, or, read with the intention ( Read more... )

Its weird to know someone who is dead. Its weird to remember sitting with them, laughing with them, driving with them as if it was but a month ago. Its even more strange to envision exactly what his dead body looks like and see a smile across his face like hes finally at rest. I think from the moment I met him I saw a unique depression I haven't ( Read more... )

In 2006 I have done nothing but destroyed my life. I've destroyed relationships that I used to try really hard to keep, I've destroyed my character that I used to be so proud of, and I've been chiseling away at my own intelligence through shallow anger and disdain for everyone around me. It’s just that my patience was completely destroyed and my ( Read more... )

Why are guys so fucking awkward on myspace? Whhhyyyy????? I dont think anyone's myspace is ever a good indicator of their character or their personality. All it does is describe, very loosely, what bands/books/movies they like. And almost all the time everyone likes the same crap. Everyone likes sublime and zeppelin and nirvana. Everyone likes ( Read more... )

I had two of the strangest dreams lately ( Read more... )

So this is what I say: Fuck. You know, I'm failing the easiest class offered at UMD because my phone is fucked up and the alarm doesnt go off half the time, but NOT LIKE I SHOULD BE WAKING UP AFTER 12 ANYWAY. Everytime I see myself fail to wake up on time a little part inside of me dies in dissapointment. And the last hope for a relationship that I ( Read more... )

I'm alive and well.

Dont know how long that will last.

I'm going to be 20 soon.

Somebody shoot me.

I guess bad descisions and I go hand in hand. Infact we're so compatible I think that it's the only relationship I've engaged in for the past, oh I don't know, my life. Somehow though, I still have hope. Somehow, I can't give up ( Read more... )