So Mike calls me at 11 something last night, asking me if I'd brought home the midchute keys... and I had, so I had to open this morning. Another long day to say the least. I laughed, I almost cried, I got very angry, I was calm.... all in a day's work. I'm coming to terms with the fact that God wants me to chill this summer and be an example, not ( Read more... )

okay so I just got home, again, from another long day at Pompeii. It was ok. The biggest issue i'm having right now is my own pride. i feel entitled to a lead position at Pompeii now, though a few days ago I felt no where near good enough to be a lead. Now I'm thinking, hey I could be a lead wherever they want me and I'd be ok. But my passion is ( Read more... )

Well I worked open to close today... twelve hours. Sarah and Laura were there. They are the only ones I really talk to on a personal level. I've come to realize that neither of them realize my true potential as a human being. I also know that I need to get with God and figure out why He led me back to Pompeii. It has come about that I could get a ( Read more... )

The name "Pompeii" has a lot of meaning to me. My first job was at Escape from Pompeii at Busch Gardens. And now, I am back for my third season at that ride. As for the in betweens... since last summer... Walmart and Golden Corral, thanks for the experience but no thanks. I love Busch. It is a major challenge. But it is also a social ground, a ( Read more... )

holy moly mother of roly poly!!! yeh okay i don't really say stuff like that. I just saw Stephen King's new movie "Dreamcatcher"... now, tell me... how on earth does he come up with these plots? it was sick. i'm writing about it to release it from immediate memory. unless you are a freaky person, do not see that movie. it was gross too... bloody, ( Read more... )

it is the Triduum... Holy Thursday, Good Friday, and then the Saturday Easter Vigil. I don't think I'll be able to go to a Vigil since I will be in northern VA. But I got off of work yesterday and today. Last night was good, I think. I saw Jodie, my supervisor at Pompeii last year. Pompeii is a Busch Gardens water ride. She essentially pulled me ( Read more... )

yeah i am angry. i am ANGER. i want to rip my skin off and say FUCK YOU to the world. Maybe i need to sleep. I took all my meds. today sucked. it just did. stop looking at me shithead. i had a crisis within last night and prayed online with Ashley. but right now i'm angry and no one is online to vent to so FUCK YOU bitch ass punks. yeh i feel like ( Read more... )

So I haven't written in over a week. I've been too depressed to. But I guess I can let it all out now since I just got home from work and I won't sleep for at least an hour. Work is getting weird. Golden Corral is nice and all, but our general manager, who I call Sushi, sucks. He only cares about the dollars and not the people. And I can't really ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a few days. I've been too depressed and pissed off. When the FUCK am I gonna fucken heal? I'm tired of waiting. I don't have it in me anymore. There is no rock bottom for me. There is no bottom. Fuck you all. Society hasn't done shit for me. And church apparently hasn't done it's fucken job either. I hate everything! The only ( Read more... )

I'm a damn idiot, that's what I am. I wrote an entire email pouring out emotion to someone and it got erased. I have nothing more to say.

We all know the deal. I'm pissed, full of anger/rage, and I need to teach myself not to screw up like that again.