it's sooooo different. crossing the road is different. ordering a coffee is different. the soy milk is different. though i must admit tears filled my peepers today when i discovered vitasoy....JOY. more joy...going to see fiona apple on friday at the Fillmore. yep. the cousin whom i'm staying with is being really nice. i'm being spoilt. and dammit ( Read more... )

biopsy done and out of the way, i felt uncomfortably existential and found some particularly ridiculous thoughts entering my mind, all about life and death and whatnot, usual depressive fare really. which isn't like me, but i rode with it, to see where it took me...bad idea. ended up in sobcity, was a mess for a whole afternoon. zoe. progressive, ( Read more... )

contrary to what i post here, i do actually get uni work done. i even manage to get by with a distinction average, though to be honest i'm not sure i entirely deserve it. tonight, however, is not one of the nights when things get done. tonight is one of the nights when things quite decidedly don't get done. at all ( Read more... )

i hate banks
oh yes i do,
the shitty thing is
they hate me too

caramel slice should not be sold to desperate uni students who are trying to study. they are poisonous, sticky, delicious advocates for heart disease and obesity, and i am starting a campaigne to eradicate these insidious appetisers, to free students worldwide from the evil clutches of these apparently harmless treats. a war on sugar has been ( Read more... )

heh, no guilt obviously doesn't work well for me, cos i've left this next essay until the last minute - as always - and it's now 3 days late. care factor is alarmingly low though, i must say. i figure i have 40 days (FORTY DAYS!!!!!!!!) until i leave for the States, and i just don't have the function within me to focus on the new car i'm organising ( Read more... )

well, he didn't cry as such when i gave him the letter, probably cos i was a bundle of nervous energy that basically bounded into the cafe, dropped the letter on the counter after a muttered line of "i'm so disappointed" and flew out, never to return. til the next day when i returned the key. i do, however, think that when Liz - after speaking to ( Read more... )

one green bean no more ( Read more... )

i was gone and now i've returned. big news in a small town... i fly out on november 20th for california, where the snow season awaits. i've been offered a 3 month contract on one of the mountains at lake tahoe. i need to leave belgrave, i need to begin the process of becoming again, rather than the stagnant 'become' that i have been for over a year ( Read more... )

i gave a women the stink eye today and she smiled at me. am i really that out of practice at being mean that people think i'm giving them a kindly stare when i'm actually wishing atrocious and vile things to befall them ( Read more... )