Comments | ohka15: Walk of shame

ohka15

Walk of shame

Jul 16, 2011 19:21

I don't know what to do anymore. I am getting to the point in my transition that I will start living full-time, and I just can't find the courage or belief or optimism that it will be ok. It is pathetic that I still haven't gone out in public yet. It is pathetic that I can't feel comfortable in buying clothes by myself. It is pathetic that I can't ( Read more... )

self confidence, confidence, body issues, self respect, sad, passing, searching, expectations, self esteem, confusion, gloom, fear

Comments 5

pouchedfox July 17 2011, 15:06:17 UTC

*hugs softly ( ... )

Awww holeintime July 19 2011, 07:11:42 UTC

Awww sweetie don't be to harsh on yourself. You are not pathetic, just seem to be scared. What is pathetic is that we all at times let what ifs and preformed notions rue our day.

Re: Awww ohka15 July 21 2011, 22:53:33 UTC

I will admit that I am scared. Uncertainity scares me. Loneliness scares me. We just gotta learn to fight through the hard times.

jess_on_toast July 20 2011, 02:03:46 UTC

I'm sure you're not a burden. That stuff isn't easy. I was always a wreck when I first started buying clothes. I eventually realized that people don't really care (ok, it took me a long time). I mean, sometimes, I still get freaked out. But it's all just headstuff. The truth is that retail people don't care at all.

I always did hair and eyebrows myself (mostly because I was poor), so I don't know if I have any good advice for those. It's definitely an option to try out doing your eyebrows yourself. There are a million tutorials online and it will grow back if you mess up. =Þ

ohka15 July 21 2011, 22:57:22 UTC

Heh, I wish that I could face some random cashier and look at them straight in the face and buy anything I want, but I am still not there yet. I guess I always dislike people judging me so I conformed for a long time to avoid it. I am slowly getting out of that mindset but not quite.

Well, I read online lots of places recommending letting professionals do your eyebrows since likely it said you will mess up. I actually did go get a haircut and eyebrows done on Sunday. I haven't had time to really write about it yet. I will summarize it soon.