i've got some feelings, but those can wait.

it's not a good time for me to need someone.
it's not a good time.
it's not a good time.

it's cheating.
in my books, it's cheating.

this isn't fair.
not to me.
i didn't do anything.

whenever i'm away i can't stop thinking about you sneaking.

that's why i can't sleep without you.
that's why i don't want to leave the house.

i wish i hadn't kidded myself, letting myself think i'd won.

i got my hopes up that you realized you didn't need to talk to anyone else anymore, and now i'm just disappointed and hurt.

i really am not enough.
i don't think i will ever be enough.
for anyone.

the trust feels gone.
at least in this regard.

it feels like it sucks worse for me.
i'm being haunted.

this is ruining things ( Read more... )

i want to hurt someone ( Read more... )

i will never stop punishing myself
and i will never stop being punished by others

it's too much
i fuck it all up, and you don't deserve that, but i don't deserve this either

this hurts so fucking bad

i need to know if this is what happens. if this is the normal thing... to feel 100000% in love and secure, but both people aren't all there?

is this just what i get?
it's torturing me, and it's hurtiny my heart..
you're a hypocrite and that sucks so much.

i'm trying so hard to fulfill everything you need and want ( Read more... )