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i'm trying so hard to fulfill everything you need and want.
i'm trying so hard to make you feel guilty about talking to that other person the way you did. not because you deserve to feel bad, but because that'll mean you've realized that i can give you anything you ask for.
it hurts hurts hurts, giving all of myself to you, having nothing of me left, no idea how i am as an individual, and all of that is still not enough to make you forget about other people, the way i've forgotten about other people.
i hate myself for snooping, but i hate that i was right to snoop, because you're hiding things. don't lie to me. please.
this all hurts to much, and i don't know what to do. i don't know how to handle this hurts without sharp things, and you always have access to my body (and who else's?). i couldn't hide. i want to though. i miss the crimson release. man i miss that feeling.
i'm trying so hard to make you feel guilty about talking to that other person the way you did. not because you deserve to feel bad, but because that'll mean you've realized that i can give you anything you ask for.
it hurts hurts hurts, giving all of myself to you, having nothing of me left, no idea how i am as an individual, and all of that is still not enough to make you forget about other people, the way i've forgotten about other people.
i hate myself for snooping, but i hate that i was right to snoop, because you're hiding things. don't lie to me. please.
this all hurts to much, and i don't know what to do. i don't know how to handle this hurts without sharp things, and you always have access to my body (and who else's?). i couldn't hide. i want to though. i miss the crimson release. man i miss that feeling.