Reading totals:
- "Frank Sinatra's Gum" - Kelly Simon
- "Girl" - Jamaica Kincaid
- "Mom" - Anne Lamott (have not yet written a reflection)
- The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams (~60 pages)

Random rants:
- Lol at plebs who really think IVs don't matter in competitive Pokemon, then spew shit like, "stats are nothing compared smarts ( Read more... )

I'm going to be lazy today. And by lazy, I mean not actually lazy, because while I may be stuck at zero productivity when it comes to actual schoolwork, I have been whipping my writing ass into shape. By which I mean, I've started on my resolution - kind of. I made a list of books to check out and sent the call numbers to my email, but when I got ( Read more... )

Today, I contacted a friend from high school I haven't talked to in a while, and we had a nice conversation about our lives and lack of motivation. It's nice - I mean, not really; it sucks feeling like this, but it's the nature of the issue - to know that someone else is in a similar situation. I never pegged her as the engineer type, anyway. I ( Read more... )

It's a struggle, sometimes, to take myself off factory setting. Practiced actions become routine. I wake up, I brush my teeth, I take out my contacts, I take a shower. I drive to school, park, walk to class. Go home. Do homework. Rinse and repeat ( Read more... )

Most of the time, it's only a faint gnawing feeling at the back of my brain. The rest of my life - the games, the writing, the videos - have become a diversion tactic. I've become complacent, numb, lazy. This last year has been an exercise in falling apart. I've cut myself off from most of my friends, cultivated my own prickly personality. This is ( Read more... )

I almost forgot to write today's daily post, mostly because I'm exhausted from the workload and (relative) lack of sleep this week, but also because I went to a sports practice this afternoon already sick, which left me with a very dry, sore throat and a slight headache. How many days do they say it takes for something to become habit? Twenty-one? ( Read more... )

One night, I had a dream. I was talking to someone (can't remember who it was or else I'd specify), and she asked me if I had started applying to graduate school. I remember feeling vaguely panicked because I hadn't, but I figured, hey, one bridge burned. I guess graduate school isn't an option then, at least not directly out of undergrad. Then I ( Read more... )

Man, oh man, where do I start with this? Is it possible to love somebody you've never met? My track record seems to suggest so, but then my track record also seems to suggest that I'm incapable of love. Point being, my track record doesn't really say anything, especially when my track record suggests I'm into guys and you most definitely don't have ( Read more... )

Where I left off... Being an idiot on a missions trip. Actually, if you want to nitpick, it was our whole little insular group (funny - I wouldn't have thought I ever belonged to an "insular" group): my friend, my first boyfriend pre-boyfriend stage, two other guys, and myself. My friend was naively, completely launching herself at the older of the ( Read more... )

(Before I start delving into deeply personal and embarrassing stories and thoughts - okay, yeah, that's pretty much what I wanted to say. Let's just leave it at, I hope nobody I know in real life finds this blog. Because though I'm fine with broadcasting my failures and my feelings about those failures to an audience of strangers or nobody at all, ( Read more... )